how great is your unchanging love

Saturday, January 31, 2009

♥ 5:13 PM

'Cause I can't get through to you anymore.
Stuck in time, stuck on you.

School's been crazy, I can't stand it. Unstoppable torrent of tests, flooding, intoxicating every pore of my body. How are we going to continue on like this?

Cause I need to know what made me unbeautiful,

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

♥ 10:13 PM

Hey dear,
I've no idea why you're feeling this way, but I hope you cheer up, and feel better soon k! I've no idea what happened, but I hope you know that I'll be here for you to support you and be with you k ;)

Love you lots! <3

Drunken stupors, headsplitting hangovers, and inebriated crazeeee.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

♥ 3:45 PM

Evil Nigelina thinks I look like that,
and is going to show everyone that ):<

THAT'S WHEN I KNOW MY LIFE IS OVER!!

Friday, January 23, 2009

♥ 9:29 PM

I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did/

I wish and wish and wish.
I miss you so much, I wish I could take back everything, but this mess is just terribly hard to get rid of ):

On top of the world, do anything be anything?
Maybe not.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

♥ 10:00 PM

Outraged outbursts.
You drove her up the wall/

"mook says:
and my name is angel mokpicassobeethovenphelpsspearsbanks tian shi"

ANGEL MOK PICASSOBEETHOVENPHELPSSPEARSBANKS TIAN SHI,

YOU ARE THE BEST PERSON I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH <3

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

♥ 8:36 PM

Insensitive insinuations.
You drive me up the wall/

Monday, January 19, 2009

♥ 8:13 PM

I'm learning to fall,
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry 'bout me.
Don't try this at home
Pretend you don't see
I don't wanna know that
you know it should have been me.

Isolation, insolent in it's own right.
Checkered pantsuits, flowered blouses and incredible gasps. She moves through the multitudes, thousands part for her. The bustling crowd ceases to commotionize. We gape, amazed at her flamboyance and distinct lack of coordination. A picture gone wrong, an abrupt splash over monotony and mutinised order. Zip and dash, salt and pepper, surprise over shock, she stands out like a sore thumb. What went so wrong, what couldn't be carried out properly. A real thing, I know it by the feeling, the moment when we mean it, will play out like a scene straight off the screen. Nobody wants to be the last one there, everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Turning into dust, playing house in the root winds of us. Running back to the fire, when there's nothing left to say is like chasing the very last train whe it's too late. Too late, too much, too heartbreaking. Time drips like a leaky faucet, never ceasing, never hesitating, never pausing. It just trickles down, before finally flooding us. We can't run, we can't hide, we can only dread the debauchery.

Clarice, omg I love you so much,
hehhe you're so fun to gossip and bitch with! :O
I particularly loved gossiping about ____ today! Omg fun fun fun <3
I will go fishing with you, since you enjoy it so much (:

Catfights with dog people.

Friday, January 16, 2009

♥ 9:02 PM

Pulled taut like a string, we're strained, we're running away, we're leaving...
we broke.

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

It was poetry in motion, it was a picture out of a book.
I don't love you anymore, I don't even want to see you, I want you to evacuate out of my life asap. You're worth nothing, I wasted too much time and energy on you only to be repaid this way. What I feel for you falls short of nothing of hate.

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

... you lied.
No more love.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

♥ 10:05 PM

Try to give, but it's not enough, to make it all okay.
I'm sorry, really ):

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

♥ 10:53 AM

Heya beautifulllllllllllll :)

I really love you, and I'm estatic about your results, it's great, and no matter how well others may have done, you still made improvement so overall it's a wonderful thing! Kudos yes! (:

As you go about choosing which poly or JC you're planning to continue your studies in, heh, I'm supporting you! Afterall, that's what sisters are for!

Although I may not voice out that you are important to me, you really are. You help me in Math, you offer your help sometimes when I don't even need it. You're always there to listen to my complaints, we can go crazy together, and yay I love you <3

OMG YAY LOVE TODAY IT'S A HOLIDAY WE CAN ALL GO CRAZY AND BE HAPPY YAY YAY YAY HAHAHAH STUDYING IN THE AFTERNOON LATER SEE YOUUUUUU BABES!

Stress, gorging, and much deserved rests <3

Monday, January 12, 2009

♥ 8:31 PM

If I could turn back time, I would turn back one year.

I would do better in my studies, I would concentrate on what I could do, I wouldn't try to over-acheive, I would treasure my friends, I would aim for the best, and only the best.

"I guess I need my life to change."

"I need to change my life."

The simple sentence structure carrying so much meaning to some, and yet to others, nothing at all. Do you plan on waiting for your life to change for you, or are you going to make a conscious effort to change it? Is this debacle of rut going to control your life, or do you treat this as an infinitely vicious cycle that never runs dry? If you hurt, is that going to happen indefinitely, or will you throw in the towel only when you've had enough? Will these crimson stains be enough to bring you back, will the anguish on their faces throw you off course and haul you back in? Break this hierarchy, trounce these traditions, collapse under the enslaught of emotions. The line's becoming blurred, the thin line of right and wrong, we can't see where we're headed, we couldn't simply throw heed to the wind. Best of both worlds, I tried, you wouldn't. If you lock me out, this routine of insane repetitions will never cease. I can't try too hard with you. I rest my case.

I know I failed, I know I can't do it. You can condemn me for it, but I won't become smarter overnight. I'll work hard, put in my best.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

♥ 9:32 PM

This straightfaced, straightjacket feeling. We're not gonna move, we're not gonna change, we're gonna stay this way, we'll stay suffering in pain. You don't want it, I don't want it, the change, the pain, indescriable, inexplicable, cutting through, searing through.
We've never been better, we'll never be better, we're staying this way.
How we feel so numb we don't even flinch when something hits us, how we block out the rest till we can't feel, how we go through so much we think we won't feel anymore pain till something whacks us straight in the face. That's when we know we've lost it all.
Insurmountable.

Monday, January 05, 2009

♥ 8:47 PM

Best friends go shopping together right after a fight :)
And just because I promised Clarice I wouldn't talk bad about her (cause I'm not bitchy from head to toe, despite her protests), I declare-

CLARICE I LOVE GOING HOME WITH YOU LET'S BE BEST FRIENDS AND GO HOME TOGETHER EVERYDAY!!!

You make me happy!! :D
I am tall, not 120cm k. I do not laugh at everything, I do not have a weird laugh, and I WANT TO BE YOUR BESTFRIEND HAHAHA, I swear I'll be better than Xinyi cause I am shorter, fatter, stupider and everything. Perfect for youuuu! HAHAHAHHAH

Erased, deleted. You were just an errata in my life. Which is striving for perfection (:

Saturday, January 03, 2009

♥ 11:41 AM

New year = wow.
New beginning = scary.
New friends = interesting.
New year seems to be a time for the new, and getting rid of the old. It's gonna happen alright (:

PB Camp was fun, haha, cause of TP gang yayyyyyy <3
We had so much fun together, I'll never forget it! Now Orientation's just coming along, we'll do another brilliant job unitedly!

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real