how great is your unchanging love

Saturday, November 29, 2008

♥ 8:49 PM

Here today and gone tomorrow,
a wave tossed in the ocean,
a vapor in the wind.

Everything's moving at a snail's pace, I really can't help but think why.
I'm tired of biasness, I'm tired of being stuck behind while everyone's racing to the front.
I'm weary of fighting, I can't help but let go.
It's become painfully blatant how much you've changed and what you crave now,
a far cry from the down-to-earth, old you.
Call me a stick in the mud, whatever,
but perhaps others will see why I pine for what we used to have.
Superficiality consumes one, and never lets go.
When are we going to get past this stage, someone tell me.

I promise, cross my heart and hope to die,
I won't ever blog again until I do your quizzes, alright?

Sylvia come back soon ):

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

♥ 10:35 PM

I wish I could say everything was calming down to a fullstop,

but I guess sometimes it's just really hard to finalise everything,

and just leave it be.

When things do end, it hurts to let go.

With everything just crowding in and insults hurled in my face,

perhaps it's time for me to take a step back and think if I made the right friends,

the right choices, the right moves.

Cause when everything seems so wrong,

how was it ever perfect?

Food for thought.

K, so now I need my fairy to come and whisk me away.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

♥ 8:38 PM

I swear, I've gotten hooked back on GossipGirl,

and I'm helpless to do anything about it.

Anndrea got me addicted back on it, and I must declare my love for Blair.

Blair is so pretty, hot, sexy.

GossipGirl is the awesomest ever.

Aaaahh I love you, Blair!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

♥ 11:12 AM

You filled my life, you brought colour in.
I saw the world in a different way.
But now I guess it's time to say goodbye,
because we never once had anything.
Call me stupid, insecure, troublesome, whiny, silly, cynical, critical, whatever.
If I could flush you out of my system with burps,
you would have gone long time ago.
No more lies, no more promises.
No more.
I'm gonna be looking at the world with a new pair of sunglasses, so to speak.

When we say goodbye, it'll be forever.

Friday, November 14, 2008

♥ 8:35 PM

You're on my mind, you're in my heart,

it doesn't matter where we are,

even if we're miles aparttt.

No matter where life takes us,

nothing can break us apart.

I just wanna be with youuu <3

Thursday, November 13, 2008

♥ 11:00 PM

If I didn't care about you so much, I wouldn't feel this way.
I feel like now there's someone right smack in the middle between us,

and this person isn't someone I even know.

I feel exactly like a beggar trying to get some scrap of your leftover attention,

I worry about you, how could I not.

I'm not sure if I regret getting myself in so deep,

but I know that I definitely wouldn't be able to leave this rut now.

I wish I could get out of this rut with you,

but everything's changing, and I'm still left back in time,

stuck behind, unable to move forward.

You've changed in ways I wouldn't dare even try to fathom,

when I look back to the times we shared, the times we actually had our heart to heart talks,

I can't help but develop a sense of nostalgia for the way you were.

The way you cared about me, and sincerely wanted the best for me.

Now when I look into your eyes, I'm wondering if you really mean it,

or if you're just trying to placate me, to get on with whatever you have to do.

I hardly even know anything about you;

I'm just someone you offload on when you're upset or when there's something big/exciting to talk about,

we've drifted too far apart to be on the same wavelength.

Or maybe we were never on the same wavelength, and everything was just my wishful thinking.

'Cause I really do think everything we have/had was all in name,

and we never really had anything substantial to hold on to.

If we could move on, I would certainly try to.

I've no idea what I'm looking to, or what I'm even trying to say,

but I guess I just miss you.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

♥ 9:19 PM

I can't believe I'm in love with Womanizerrrrr, but
that's just what you areee ah ah (:

I've this inane urge to scrub the walls of my kitchen toilet,
and hum along tunelessly to all the songs I'm listening to.
I'm really not looking forward to all the camps I'll be going to. I really hope they won't be a complete waste of time, spent in the company of trying people (I don't mean this, of course). If I could, I wouldn't go for band camp! Who wants to stand in the sun and get an uneven tan all over?! Besides, Pris is a very very very lazy person, she won't want to wake up at all, and she'll keep having to do punishments ):

Okay yada yada, enough about lazy pris.
SYLVIA YOU CHEER UP NOW I INSIST!!
IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY SO YOU MUST BE A HAPPY BABY!
OKAY NO NEED TO BE HAPPY YOU CAN BE SAD ALL YOU WANT NOW!!!!
No lah, cheer up alright (;
Happy birthday dear! Love youuuu <3

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

♥ 8:31 PM

SENTOSA SATURDAY! ㋡
If you're freee, come and join us for fun in the sunnnn!

Free and easy, drop me a line if you're gonna come/ wanna come!

I promise not to scare you off with my farts and burps :D

Come please comeeeeeeeeeee <3

We the Kings are the absolute best, I give them all my thumbs up!

Anyway, I saw two people worthy of MFI again today. When will I ever be able to escape this insanity? I have no idea why I always get so irritated in the company of these MFI-wannabes, they just make me want to throw something "accidentally" hit their head, and go, "Omg, I'm sorry, that was your head, isn't it?"

Hypocritical, yes. But how else will I exact my revenge on these hypocrites. Ahhh I feel so mean, so I shan't, and I will just think about We the Kings! <3

If you jump, I will jump too!

Monday, November 10, 2008

♥ 9:58 PM

now you don't.

The Law of Inertia's encumbering me, keeping my butt rooted to anything that's solid.

Ahhhhh woebegone! I had a tres brilliant day! (:

Okay so maybe it started off horridly, but things turned round!

I love going out with Su-May! She is the funniest, and cutest person to watch movies with!

We tried out The Coffin, which was really just too freaky to continue.

So we sneaked out, and begged the man to let us into High School Musical!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I LOVE HSM 3!!!

Okay I must chilllllllllll.

Continuation another day.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

♥ 9:41 PM

CLARA YOU FAKE OBAMA FAN SEE MUST HIDE YOUR FACE SOMEMORE!!

Duh, I'm a total advocate for Obama :D

What do you mean when you say things have come to an end?

It's a total lie, because there will always be continuations.

I always feel this way on Saturdays- tired, demoralised and spent.

Why do I go to church on Sundays?

To recharge the empty battery, to catch up with my friends, to eye some guy?

I'm so tired of dancing to your tune.

I want my own originality, I don't want to be pulled along by you all the time.

The promises you make, they're all just empty promises,

just something to placate me, an empty shell to make me happy?

Once you're done with me, I'm just strewn casually to the side.

I confided in you, told you stuff which I now regret.

I would have willingly gotten the stars in the sky for you a few weeks back,

but now it's so blatantly clear you're not worth it.

I'm not going to repeat this anymore, I'm tired,

the world will continue without you, it'll keep on turning without you in my life,

the insignificance of a person crystal clear now.

I don't want you anymore, I give up on what we had.

You'll hone your skill, and I'll become as impenetrable as a diamond.

White Horses report another day.

Please tune in.

Ifyoumeanit,i'llbelieveit.

Ifyoutextit,i'lldeleteit.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

♥ 9:59 PM

Okay I must say how much I love Obama, and how glad I am that he won. Pity Palin is not his Vice-Pres, but oh well, we can't have too much of a good thing (:

Oh Eudora! Cheer up! Get more rest, be a happy baby! :D Afterall, we'll be seeing a lot more of each other next year (:

I'VE GOT A CRUSH ON OBAMA!!

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

♥ 8:43 PM

Priscilla is in such a good mood today, I shan't even bother to elaborate on why, just in case I find a blemish in this wonderful day and my brilliant mood turns foul.

Let me expound on why I hate chilli:
1. It's icky.
2. It has little red bits in it.
3. It sucks to wash chilli plates.
Besides, I can't take chilli, so why should I love it, when I can't even eat it?

JIAXUAN I AM SO SURE YOU'RE GONNA BE THE BEST SERVANT EVER I'M GONNA PAY YOU IN ADVANCE WITH ALL MY LOVEEEEEEEE (L)

Monday, November 03, 2008

♥ 8:54 PM

I'm back from China, bet you guys all missed me ;)

China was great fun and alllll :D

I'll post about it some other time, though.

Closure post, this is gonna be.

We're all going our different ways, be it triple, double, or even combined. But I'll miss everyone, no matter whether we were close or not. Way overdue, I believe this post is. All my friends are psychedelic colours, brightening up my life, filling up the blank spaces, adding panache to my life. Flamboyant peacocks running rampant, you add sugar and spice to my life. Zip and dash.

Clara: You were the bestfriend everyone wanted, and I'm thankful for the friendship we have. I'm really glad we're not gonna be split up, and I believe that if we both didn't go to the same class, I would have cried bollocks, I would have cried a river. I guess it's really when you're going to lose something, you find out how much you really treasure it, and how much you need it. Although we may have our many little tiffs, we always make up, and I would never trade your friendship for anything in the world. You're the person who knows when I'm upset, who knows when I'm holding back. You're a friend who really knows me. You understand when I complain, and the bitching sessions we have really help. If not by now, I'd be in jail for beating up and killing many people! I love love you <3

Shabbna: I really meant it that when I think of you, I think of RMUN. When I think of RMUN, I also think of you! You were the awesomest RMUN buddy anyone could ever have! We had so much fun crapping, and complaining together, along with the cool notes we passed during RMUN itself. You brought much insight into my life, you gave me extraordinary, exemplemary advice, and you were always there as a listening ear. You're the prefect buddy I love, we had such fun at DB! I may not have always showed you how much I treasure you, but Shabbna, I really do. <3

Melodi: Ah, so much to say. First day of school in P5 was unforgettable! Birdshit, dogshit, what about catshit? HAHAHAHA, you make me laugh, cause you're hilarious! So were the many GB camps we used to go for together, along with Bindhu! I will never forget the times we have 'am-chio-ed' during Chinese lessons, and all the gossip we shared! You're really a bundle of fun, even when you're trying to be seductiveeee. We're gonna have two more years together, all the more time for me to tease you about the goings of the China trip we just had, hahaha :D Love you lots <3

Esther: I wish you needn't go. You'll definitely be missed! Your wit, pizzazz and randomnity just add a splash of colour wherever you go, don't worry about treading new grounds, you'll fit in anywhere! Everytime I look at a bar of soap, I'll remember you. Everytime I hear about a guinea pig, I'll think of you. Everytime I hear the Phantom of the Opera, I'll think of you fondly ;)

Isabel: Lovely lovely lovely pink! Whenever I see pink, I'll think of you! I'll miss you a lot, seriously. You were always willing to lend a listening ear when I ran into problems, and taking bus home with you have been great, all the trips have been fun! I'll miss turning my head around and talking to you in the Science Lab! True friends will be there for you, and I'll always be around for you. You can tell me whatever (: I wanna go out with you frequently, I wanna play dress-up in your closet! I love youuuu <3

Sara Jane: You tall tall tall person! I'll miss your incessant chatter in class! Your bear hugs are great- nice, warm and enveloping! When I hear the word great, you'll pop into my mind, and I'll think about how great you've been to me. AND I'LL NEVER FORGET THE WORD YOU TAUGHT ME - OCTOGENARIAN! When we're both octogenarians, I expect to be seated next to you, rocking in my chair, checking my false dentures beside you, complaining about our kids or even grandkids together! Of course we can also make time to reminiscent our China trip! You brought major fun into my life, I'll miss your small eyes, small feet, and small talk :D Love youuuuu! <3

Sylvia: I have so much to say to you, and even if I tried, I would never be able to finish it. I can't get rid of you, no matter how hard I try! I wish we were going to the same class. You always listen to me prattle on and on, and although you always complain, you never turn me away, and for that (of course) I'm happy! You've been one skinny but overwhelming bundle of joy and fun! You have the talent of making people happy, but you must remember to not neglect yourself alright! When I'm not around to nag at you, please look after yourself! You have the ability to go far, go ahead and expand your fanbase! GET A GOOD MANAGER K! I must say that I do love you, and I'll miss you a lot <3

Su-May: I'll swim across the ocean for you, if that would mean we would be able to go to the same class! I'm really going to miss you loads :( I wish with all of my heart that we would not need to change classes. You're the first I see when I come to class early, I'm going to miss your laughter, your bouncy hair, you understanding what I mean almost all the time, your jokes, your presence, your hugs. I'm gonna miss you so much :( You've always been there for me, and I really need to apologise about last year, when things between us were not the best, and you nearly did not want to be my friend anymore. We MUST keep in touch, go out together often, watch more movies together alright! :D Housebunny was unforgettable, the day was unforgettable, and it was because I spent it together with you. You bring joy and happiness into my life, I'll miss you so much :( Su-May, I love love love youuuu loads <3

2.1: We may not have always been very united, and we have definitely had more than our fair share of verbal spars, but I believe that these are what makes us so uniquely special. I wish we could move up as a class, but I guess once you've had too much of a good thing, it's always snatched away from you. I'll miss everyone, big, small, cute, pretty, sexy, whatever :D

Where's the plane going to take me, now that my home has been torn apart,

and remanants of it have been strewn all over?