how great is your unchanging love

Thursday, July 31, 2008

♥ 8:57 PM

Let me light up the skyyy <3
light it up for you.
I just finished another Jodi Picoult book,
The Tenth Circle.
Deceit lies under the desperate heart,
and everything changed.
Upset the world, caused someone his life.
The pain can be all-consuming,
sapping up all the rest of the world.
Eradicate the pain,
extricate myself from it.
Oh, could it be that hard.
Let me tell you why,
I would die for you.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

♥ 9:42 PM

Face down in the dirt,
she says it doesn't hurt.
The ups and downs in life,
well, I'm at the absolute pits now.
Some people are damn hypocritical,
you go behind one's back and gossip,
spewing your vulgarities and slamming that person,
then you go behind that exact same person's back,
and taint the person you just shared juicy gossip with.
You're like a super bitch.
Just that you surpass the ranks.
The day has just been like a rollercoaster,
the way my emotions were hurled high,
and smashed down low.
Thanks for totally looking after my feelings,
I totally appreciated it.
Save it for yourself, you bitch.

Monday, July 28, 2008

♥ 8:22 PM

He makes all things beautiful, in His time.

Finished the Pilot Pen Essay, finally,

and read through the whole of Silent Boy.

Torey Hayden writes differently from Jodi Picoult,

they're worlds apart, believe me.

Clara left school early, cause she wasn't feeling quite right,

so I was left behind with Melodi and Shabbna,

AWESOMEEEEE :D

Let me just say how much I love Melodi Lee MeiLi!

Okay I wanted to like, type in Jap,

but Blogger can't do ittttt.

Oh well.

Melodi, I LOVE YOU ❤

God makes all things beautiful in His time,

we just have to wait.

How long is that wait, I wonder?

Watashi wa MEL ga totemo suki desu! <3

Sunday, July 27, 2008

♥ 10:06 AM

We blow at the bubbles which we can never touch.

I shat just now.

It was so excruciatingly painful to see my pile of shit.

Omg it was like, diarhorea and shit mixed together.

IT WAS A HUGE PILE, I TELL YOU.

We excrete poop which we never dare to touch.

As the smell permeated the air,

I nearly thought impossible to breathe.

Just as how without God we will never be able to do things that are supposedly impossible.

Sometimes, I just wish the tests and stress would stop,

then it wouldn't be so hard to get through my feeling,

and think about what I want to do.

I want to know what I want to do with my life,

who would be a suitable role model for me and everything.

Sometimes, it's just so hard :/

Life is as hard as stone,

unmovingly, stone, cold.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

♥ 4:29 PM

Everytime I see it, I'm reminded of you.

The violin thingy yesterday was such a rush for me,

seeing as how my piano exam is really close :/

and there are so many piano lessons, killing my social life.

Onto a new book, Silent Boy.

By Torey Hayden, enriching much! :D

Nowadays, I just feel like picking up a book, and shutting out the rest of the world.

If only I could do that.

The time we need just isn't there.

Cynical, haha, can't help it.

Went for the Youth Acheivers Forum today.

Missed out the Sungei Buloh trip with the rest of the class.

I was rather impressed with how insanely boring it was during the first part,

although I must say the Break-up session where we had Miss Celine ________ Lee speak to us,

it was massively more interesting.

Passion, time, youth, young- all the words that were thrown around frequently.

YEAH YOU GIVE ME TIME LAH,

THEN I DO FOR YOU.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

♥ 9:36 PM

"He could stand pain, himself. He just couldn't stand Emily's."
A fusion that went beyond mere words.

A connection that couldn't be understood,

childhood friends, turning to lovers.

It went beyond the physical,

into the emotional and spiritual realm.

Interlinking two separate bodies into one,

such that decisions can't be made without the other.

Intertwined together, in life and death.

Reading The Pact brought back poignant memories of how Cynthia always tells me to press forward onto the prize which Christ has called us heavenward.

Has what I have been working so hard for, really worth it?

Is the person I am trying to emulate worth it, and a good role model?

The love Chris had for Em was just so powerful, it made me want to tear.

The truth can be so misconstrued at times,

we can't even tell right from wrong.

"Or you can hold the truth in your hands, and see it for the gift it is."

Don't lie to yourself, or God.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

♥ 8:42 PM

It was The Pact.
A promise to hold on to,
one that was meant to be fulfilled.
Rivetingly, painstakingly heartfelt.
Okay, I think I need to improve my English, it sucks :/
I have a new fetish for yellow!
Pale yellow, to be preciseeeeee.
I want pale yellow flats omggggg! :D
I really do think yellow is my new favourite colour now!
HAHAHA I HAVE COME UP WITH THIS NEW THEORY THAT ALISON IS NURSING A CRUSH ON RUTHHHHHH!
HOHO, hilarious! (:
Oh, and Clara owes me a really disturbing dare on COLIN!
(she wants to violate him!)
The Chinese test today was so wasted, I totally blanked out! I told Melodi to study the word, and it came out, and I forgot. Plus point was that I was memorising how to write it just before the test. I am an absolute idiot.
History test today was a little wasted too, but I'm not affected, seeing as it's only 4%, hehhh (:
There's so many tests tomorrow :/
English Argumentative Essay, Chinese Gong Han test, and Geography test!
AHHH SO MUCH TO DO SO LITTLE TIMEEEE
Shabbna and Clara, cheerup! <3

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

♥ 8:32 PM

We're swept away in time.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

♥ 8:44 PM

there's always some point in time where we lose all clarity.

Actually I already blogged today.

Oh well, you guys can enjoy a double posting then :D

Because I didn't understand how to react,

because I didn't know how to,

it was just plain weird and irritating to have you buzzing around.

I never understood what you were thinking,

or what you were even doing.

A seemingly demure facade it may be,

but behind lies one who will cheat and lie for anything.

I don't know how to tell you this,

but it's plain and simple-

You were never a friend.

Suddenly it became apparent.

♥ 8:51 AM

My piano exam is coming really soon,
Ahhhh, don't know how to feel.
Kinda had a sucky time at band yesterday,
with stupid bird shit falling on me D: <
And then my jaw kept clenching again, causing my lips to flap.
Went ushering for PL Musical for afters,
kinda cool with Vivien and Annabella! (:
I'm going to have to practise my piano like shit,
and miss out on a lot of stuff.
Now, do I realise why you held me back.
Church today <3

Friday, July 18, 2008

♥ 8:42 PM

WHAZZATTT.
And because of the loss.

Moods have been fluctuating these few days,

really can't stand certain things,

and absolutely yearning to get out of school.

I feel so tired of everything,

and my piano exam is coming waay too soon.

In a blink of an eye, a month will be over,

panic and anxiety will be overwhelming.

I can't say I'm looking forward to anything.

Dragging myself to school every morning,

counting down till I can leave that hot cauldron.

Because if you didn't do that,

I wouldn't have known you were like that.

I AM STILL CRAVING FOR M&Ms PEANUT BUTTER <3

Thursday, July 17, 2008

♥ 9:29 PM

IN YOU I TRUST
and i trust in you, i trust in youuu.
I've got all this ringing in my head, and I can't let it go.
If we could go back to the time of wide eyed innocence,
if we could bring it all back,
to how it used to be,
I would definitely do things differently! (:
I'm rather busy doing D&T now,
had a rather uneventful day.
To move mountains,
to change lives,
to exemplify God's name.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

♥ 9:17 PM

I BELIEVE YOU'RE MY HEALER :D
Today's Chapel session was definitely impactful,
and when the guy was singing about God being his healer,
I'm sure he was talking beyond the physical illness.
He was moving on to how God will heal every hurt and pain in our life.
He will make every booboo better.
When I was watching the video, I felt very moved.
The guy, despite his cancer, could be still go up and praise the Lord,
I'm fine, and I don't think I have ever been that moved to do such a thing!
FAITH JOURNEY!
Come on, I feel so motivated now.
Albeit a little hesitant, but I shall go aheaddddddd.
God's love can change everything.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

♥ 4:28 PM

check yes juliet, are you with me?
Okay, school has been rather fine,
but I have had an immense craving/want for M&Ms Peanut Butter, omggggg! ♥
I so want them! :D
Chinese Oral tomorrow, can't help feeling nervyyy.
I can't help feeling worried,
and there is this nagging feeling in my heart.
Something BIG is going to happen,
no idea if it'll be good or not.
Something has changed, I can feel it.
Just realised that the China person will be coming over around the National Day period, haha.
Won't it be exciting :D
I do want to get out of this funk,
just that I have no idea how.

Monday, July 14, 2008

♥ 8:59 PM

Some things change really fast, and people do too.
Let me tell you guys about Saturday! (:
Oh man, I was the one who screwed up the whole thing for the team!
I forgot the words to the first poem, and the audience thought it ended,
then Shabbna had to cue me and I continued.
I felt so bad D:
Hoho, saw Liki there! Suprised yeah (:
Our school did quite well, yayyy!
Kudos to seniors which brought back prizes, and thanks for all the constant coaching,
and staying back late with ussssss!
Coming up nextttttt, MAGICBOX!
It was great, and Vivien, Shabbna &Isador were great companyyyyy! :D
We had so much funnnn! :D
Hilarious yess!
The magic was cool, and quite impressive.
Not bad yeahhhhhhhhh!
Intermission was funny, loved the whole experience with school! (:
I LOVE THE POLE, HOHO!<3

it goes beyond what we see.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

♥ 8:43 PM

Here goes a conversation between Ruth, the M1 man, and I.

P&R: Hi, are you an actor?
M1 Man: Uhh yes?
P&R: Are you the M1 man?!?!
M1 Man: Haha, yes.
P&R: OMG YOU'RE THE M1 MAN!
*starts freaking out*

Typical conversation, I'd say. People swarmed to him for photos after.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

♥ 9:29 PM

I think this picture is rather funny (:
Okay so we stayed back to prepare for Poetry Slam again.
I must say that I am kinda stressed about it,
but something exciting is that Shab and I are presenting our Climate Change one together (:
There's so many things going on tomorrow!
COE Launch, Math, Art, D&T and Poetry Slam practice again.
Thank God for the Poetry Slam seniors,
or else we might just die :/
I'll be decked out in the blazer again, tomorrow.
Hopefully I won't die of leg ache or something.
I'm the only pathetic one without a skirt!
HOW SAD AND PATHETIC IS THAT D:
I am going to pray hard for everything that is happening,
God help us.
I am still a hug machine, in need of hugs, whoo (:
I like this colour <3
I can't wait for everything to be over,
and finally have the time to breathe and catch my breath again.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

♥ 8:49 PM

OKAY OMG SQUIRTLE752@HOTMAIL.COM!

Recently, I've gone back into being addicted on Pokemon :D

THE THEME SONG SO COOL K!

I heard something like, they deleted the PokemonCrater website D:

Ahh, goodness, I'm crushed!

I wanted to go back and play!

LET ME TELL YOU WHO GOT ME HOOKED BACK ON POKEMON!

OMG ALL PHILIP'S FAULT, HAHHAHAAH!

I think my favourite Pokemon now is Phione,

followed closely by Manaphe and Cyndaquil.

I have no idea why people like Squirtle.
He really isn't that cute!

Anyway, today we stayed back and prepared for Poetry Slam :D

COOL TO THE MAXXXXX OKAY! :D

The poems we have are so cool,

esp the one Women Drivers (:

So much expression to have, and everything (:

I'm kinda worried for Saturday, I sure hope we do our school proud,

and not let them down,

not do worser than the seniors (which is quite worrying. they did brilliant :D)

Hahah Shabbna and I combined our poems,

how cool is that!

Now Izabella is writing another one about jellyfishes, and maybe lollipops,

COOLIOZXZX MANZXZX :D

Let's do well :D

OMG I CAN GO FOR THE CHINA TRIP, DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM :D

THANK YOU ALL CHINESE TEACHERS, MOE AND WORLDDDDDD :D

I am full of love,

come get freee hugs! <3

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

♥ 3:04 PM

This time, it is the loss of a young child.
His name was Noah, and he was barely a year old.
His parents had prayed hard for him,
a long and sometimes, painful wait.
They waited and looked forward to this little bundle of joy.
Eagerly anticipating his arrival.
Everything ended in pain.
Noah left to be with the Lord on the 8th of July 2008, at 1405 hours.
After so much prayer and high hopes for the child to be alright,
God still took him away after all.
Maybe it's for the better,
no one really knows, do we?
Kinda weird how everything bad comes in one chokeful,
the loss of a grandparent, and now the loss of another young life.
It has gotten me thinking.

Monday, July 07, 2008

♥ 9:15 PM

Okay this is a funny picture :D
Class outing was okay,
didn't really meet up with GA 1 though D:
I thought the time at Bugis was a bombbbbbb! (:
HAHAHA OMGG SO MANY CHEAP STUFFS OMG FAINTTT.
I will definitely go there with MummyDearest one day!
WE'LL BUY THE WHOLE PLACE DOWN UPPPP AND DOWN :D
I wanna go again (:

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,

vehemently fighting for the chance,

but wasted the opportunity.

Everything changed overnight,

feelings, emotions, plans.

Myriads of emotions fill this hollow cup,

seemingly empty but full to the brim.

How are we going to do it,

move together, or push away?

Saturday, July 05, 2008

♥ 8:49 PM

OMG POETRY SLAM WORKSHOP WAS THE BOMBZXZXZX :D
I had so much fun!
Haha, Shabbna, Izabella, Chun Hsin and I are the teammmmm! (:
Omg so cool so coool (:
We wrote two poems, and I feel sper poetic now!
I totally loved the workshop, and even though I was really nervous while presenting,
I think whatever we wrote was rather substantial and goooood! (:
There were some parts that were rather dry,
but overall I think this workshop really enriched my lifee! <3
Ahh, am rather worried for the Poetry Slam Competition next week (Sat),
will probably go all poetic and everything ;D
YAY TEAM! <3
SUPER! POETRY SLAM'S THE BOMBZXZX <3>

Thursday, July 03, 2008

♥ 9:26 PM

YAY JUNYAN JUST SENT ME THE PICTURES FROM RMUNNNNNN :D

Most of GA-1 is here!

Whoohoo, our gossip gang ♥

HAHAHA :D

Japan and Vietnam preying on "innocent" USA (:
Aww I miss RMUN ):
Nevermind, on our meetup Monday,
let's take more photos and have a funfun meetup! ♥
Miss you guys (:

♥ 12:15 PM

I have no idea what to say, as I am in school.
Will have a long, nice post later.
The second day of fasting was even worse,
I have no idea if I will be able to last the whole 40days, omgzx.
Sometimes it is just so hard to walk down the road that we know is right.
What if it just brings us to a dead end?
How are we going to proceed on from there?
God help us.
For IT in school, we're gonna start up a school blog, for everyone.
AND IT HAPPENS TO BE GRADED, wow.
Let's see, idk what's gonna happen.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

♥ 10:08 PM

40 Day Prayer & Fast has officially started! (:
I've fasted dinner today!
Fasting dinner shall be what I'm going to do!
PRAY PRAY PRAY :D
Had band today, was slightly scaaary.
Omg, I have this jaw-locking problem I need to get rid of,
before NDP!
I'm so afraid for NDP, I don't think I'm up to mark yetttt!
Good thing YingBing and I asked Sir about it,
HOPEFULLY WE'LL FIX MY STUPID JAW/MOUTH.
Public Speaking Course (Advanced), Teacher's Day Comm Meeting and History Test are all tomorrow! :/
And they happen to clash.
Have been studying my History, hopefully will do well! (:
Omg, poetry slam's coming up!
YAY, SHABBNA'S GOINGGGGG! SAME TEAM, WHOOHOO! (:
I feel rather excited, and hope my father will allow me to go.
Sometimes, I feel so stifled by my parents,
they don't allow this and that ):
whatever