how great is your unchanging love

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

♥ 7:51 PM

High School really never ends!
Aiyoyoyo, band was horrible today.
We shall not talk about it.
Got back term3 results today.
I didn't do too well. :
Shan't talk about it either.
I wish I put in more effort for the CTs.
AHHH.
I am going to shake my butt now,
byebye.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

♥ 12:00 AM

There's always a first time for everything.

For example,

this is my first time blogging at midnight.

Today was just today-ish.

Nothing special.

Ahh, I got an A1 for Maths and Physics! (:

I wish I got a little higher for Physics, though.

I could have topped the class!

Aiya, but missed by 2marks, darn.

It was really crazy at about late afternoon today.

Rushing to and fro,

getting permission for this and that.

My handphone is gone -.-

Pfft, it's still around,

but as good as useless.

It has 96cents worth of money in it.

I can't make phonecalls,

I can't message,

I can only read messages. :

What type of handphone would this make?

I realize that everytime I am feeling sad,

I would like to go run away from reality,

and just go to sleep.

Feeling sad makes me feel tired D:

For example,

I slept during Break 1 today.

HAHAHAHA.

I was really tired,

in addition to the fact that I was devastated I did not top the class for Physics.

I am really doofus-y at times,

getting sad over stupid things.

Yes, even I think it's stupid.

Hahaha.

Su-May was really nice, though.

She helped me carry my bag and everything, yeah.

I didn't ask her to okay!

She was just really sweet and took my bag(:

Su-May, I love you! <3

First times are always new,

and maybe scary,

but nothing to shrink or run away from.

I am going to get baptized!

For the first time in my life! (:

Hahha, of course right?

Yesyes, you are invited to witness my baptism.

I have no idea why I am so excited about my baptism.

I am getting baptised on the 31st August!

Okayokay, I've told you about it.

Now, you must come(:

I guess it will be a new experience,

and something that will strengthen my walk with God?

I certainly hope so.

I have always been trying to solve my problems on my own,

maybe now I should just hand everything over to God,

afterall, He's much stronger(:

Maybe we should all just pass everything over to God,

it will make life much easier.

What for worry about tomorrow?

Tomorrow can worry about itself(:

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God is my fortress and tower of strength,

I can run to Him and not be afraid

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

♥ 7:39 PM

I'M SCREWED. D:
I'm a royal screw-up.
I never knew such a thing/problem will happen to me.
I feel so confused?
Wake me up when this ends,
not when September ends.
I FEEL SO SCREWED.
When I was listening to the radio in the shower today,
I heard "Wake Me Up When September Ends", by Green Day.
How apt.
Just that I only want to wake up after the mess is cleared.
Just sat down on the toilet floor and listened to the song.
The song made me feel so,
UNDERSTOOD, in a way.
I'm just down on my head.
The sky is not lighted up.
Shadows and regrets fill my life.
I guess I just need to sort my life out.
HCL has been screwed up by me.
Maths - 35/40 - what do you think?
Miss Kok was like,
"Priscilla, I am so angry with you"
when I looked at my marks.
What's wrong with me?
I just scraped by with an A2 for History.
I think I may have gotten an A1 for Maths this term,
but not sure if when everything gets evened out,
whether I can get an A1.
I sure do hope so.
I AM SUCH A SCREW-UP.
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Wake me up when September ends

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

♥ 11:00 PM

Haha, I was bored, and I got this off Stephanie's blog. (:

IF SOMEONE SAYS " IS IT OK?"
YOU SAY...
Girlfriend – Avril Lavigne
HEY HEY YOU YOU, I DON’T LIKE YOUR GIRLFRIEND?
‘cos I am straight (:

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Untitled – Simple Plan
I am not that hopeless! (:
Was never hopeless!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
What I Want – Daughtry
Umm, ahha?

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Obviously – Mcfly
Obviously, good, bad, and okay!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Look After You – The Fray
Who am I supposed to look after?

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Only Hope – Mandy Moore
Do I actually hope a lot? I don’t know.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Right Where You Want Me – Jesse McCartney
Hmm, maybe.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR PARENTS?
Angel of Music – Andrew Lloyd Webber (from Phantom of the Opera)
I do not agree with this.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Last Night – P. Diddy feat Keisha Cole
What is there to think about last night??!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
I Miss You – Simple Plan
Haha, yeah, I guess I do miss some of my best friends(:

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
HeroHeroine – Boys Like Girls
Haha, is he really a hero? Lol.
Wait, I don't like anyone at the present moment.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP??
Revolution – The Veronicas
HAHAHAHA!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
For You I Will – Teddy Geiger
What a sweet song!
But what will you do for me? Die?

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Take ‘Em Off – Craig David
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO TAKE OFF??!!?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Iris – The Goo Goo Dolls
I think they mean the song.
The lyrics and everything, not the person, or the song.
really nice song, actually (:

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Unsaveable – Faith Hill
I really think this song is nice, but are my friends really unsaveable?
I thought they’re nice and great (:

WHAT SONG WILL BE YOUR SUBJECT WHEN YOU POST?
Light Up the Sky – Yellowcard
Ahhhh!<3 this last question is TRUE!
I do love LIGHT UP THE SKY!<3

not that bad eh?

♥ 8:21 PM

Hahaha,
my hair is dropping like crazyyyyy.
Ahh, not cancer patient also can become lah! (no offence)
Yesyes, today we had band.
We're going to be playing next Wednesday for some Lunchtime thingo,
so we are playing:
Spongebob, Looney Tunes, Instant Concerto and High School Musical.
ALL THE SONGS ARE REALLY HARD. D:
Okay, maybe not all.
Spongebob is okay lah, High School Musical too,
but the rest are HARD. D:
I hope I can master them before next Wednesday!
This term is so screwed,
and so am I(:
What can I do?
Haha, nothing.

Monday, August 20, 2007

♥ 8:15 PM

Okayyyyyyyyy,
wasn't planning on blogging.
But here I am,
so who cares!
Let's blog.
Ahhh, today was the Maths and Science paper.
Physics was screwed. D:
so we shall not talk about it.
The Maths paper was one hour long.
I took 30minutes to do it!
I hope Miss Kok's proud of me! :D
Actually, I found it pretty easyy.(:
But not everyone found it easy,
I don't know why.
I hope I do well(:
I cut my hair today!
Actually, sad to say,
I couldn't really do anything about my length of hair.
It was either stay with the length, or as short as Pat's.
Obvious that I chose to stay with my current length,
so the hairdresser just layered my hair,
and now...
It's really thin.
Yupps, I look as if I am a cancer patient,
with little/no hair! (no offence or whatever)
Don't know whether it's nice or not,
guess will just have to go school and see the comments I receive.
Hahha! :D
Ahh, why does band have to start tmr?
Why can't they give us a B-R-E-A-K?!!?
Nevermind, just go for band prac lah,
what else can I do?
PON?
Tempting, but I shan't(:

Saturday, August 11, 2007

♥ 11:47 AM

Okay, I know this is really soon.
But I want to blog this.
As I was doing special things in the toilet,
basking in the aroma of the "special things",
I was suddenly reminded of
How shit that is lighter brown and floats are healthier,
and how dark brown shit that are shit brown and sink are extremely,
I stared at my "special business".
Not suprisingly, my shit was healthy!
Hallehlujah!
I am healthy,
or rather,
my shit is.
I also thought of something else in the toilet.
Are we focused on what we do?
Or are we often distracted?
Like how, when we shit,
we are often distracted,
and the process takes a longer time.
Isn't that true in all we do?
When we're doing our homework,
we often think of other things,
and lose interest in the work. (not saying that the homework was vaguely interesting)
SO...
We need to be more focused.
For example,
don't read storybooks/magazines in the toilet while doing "special businesses".
We may be able to close the deal sooner if we don't read, or whatever!
So logical right?
THINK ABOUT IT!
YOU COULD HAVE A FUTURE IN SHITTING!
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Afternote: I did not laugh while writing this post.

♥ 11:17 AM

I never knew,
I never knew.
I guessssssssssss you can say I'm in a better mood(:
The virus didn't really affect anything,
did it, Clara?
Hahah, apologies.
BUT WHY DID YOU ACCEPT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE LAH!
Haha.
I'm currently addicted to Hinder/Nickelback.
Thanks to Shabbna,
who sent me lots of their songs(:
Thanks for all the encouragements, yeahh?
From Clara, Shabbna, Niki, Isabel, Swatter, ZongQi(?)
ARE THERE ANY OTHERS I HAVE LEFT OUT.
Thanks to Izabella, Melodi for listening to me,
and crying with me(not that I cried), or lamenting with me.
Hahaha :D
The urge to slap fishys are gone.
Hahaha.
(jokejoke)
Don't know when he's going to go.
But I guess just trust that God will bring me through.
Afterall, I still have my family and friends.
After all this time,
I can see like who will be there for me and blahblah.
I know who are true friends that will comfort and cheer me up(:
Some friends are just friends to have good times with,
but there will always be this group that will be there lah!
That day, was joking with Isabel.
About her eunch male dog.
Yesyes(:
Oh, it'd be great to see it in a bikini!
If Isabel is reading this,
remember to buy a bikini for it, okay!
AHHHH!
I have remembered what other band I'm addicted to...
dearest YELLOWCARD<3
HAHAHAHHA!
Light up the sky, mann!
I'll light it up for you(:
And Shadows and Regrets.
Thanks to Hazel for sending me.
FOB has no place in this post alr.
Haven't reeeally been listening to them recently, yeah.
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Let me light up the sky,
Light it up for you.
Let me tell you why,
I would die for you.
Let me light up the sky,
Light it up for you.
Let me make this mine,
I'll ignite for you,
I'll ignite for you.
Let me light up the sky,
Light it up for you.
Let me tell you why,
I would die for you

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

♥ 9:38 PM

PRISCILLA IS DAMN STUPID, can?
I go accept some virus thingo!
AHHHHH!
AHHHHH!
The pain and torture I am going to go through,
if people accept the virus via me!
AHHHHH!
Prepare the coffin,
and the burial clothes.
Like I told JiaXuan,
I'm going to be buried in my band uniform.
Pleaseplease,
don't forget me when I go.
AHHHHH!
WHAT IF THE COMPUTER CRASHES??!!?
Stupid people who come up with viruses,
why do you want to hurt computers!
They are so cute, like me!
HEY HEY YOU YOU!
I DON'T LIKE YOUR VIRUS.
I THINK YOU NEED ONE YOURSELF.
CRY CRY CRY CRY
THAT'S WHAT YOU'LL DO WHEN YOU GET IT.
HEY HEY YOU YOU!
I DON'T LIKE YOUR VIRUS!

Sunday, August 05, 2007

♥ 8:02 AM

I never quite understood why he had to go away.
Maybe it really is God's will.
God always does things in the weirdest way imaginable.
He never told anyone His plans.
I'll just have to trust God in this.
He can't possibly fail me,
He is the Lord of all.
I just feel really stressed.
I can't exactly talk to my mom about this.
She's feeling enough pain as it is already.
I put my absolute faith in God.
There's nothing else I can do,
can I?
Maybe you should try serving my head on a platter to God.
Home isn't a place where I can rest easy already.
There's always this sense of melancholy.
Anyway,
I do believe that God will come through for me. (:
I must believe,
if not, there's nothing else to look forward to.
I'm going to put in my everything for
GOD, MY MOM, MY STUDIES.
Go Priscilla.

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I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you
.I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
Be careful what you wish for,'
Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,'
Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
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Friday, August 03, 2007

♥ 11:12 PM

Priscilla sucks like shit, can?
I wish I could let go,
but somethings,
are just too hard to release.
Why did he even have to take the job?
AND WALK OUT ON US?
He has made it impossible.
1 year will become 2,
and 2, become 3 and so on.
You get my drift.
School just doesn't feel the same already.
I should just drop to NT, shouldn't I?
Confidence is a thing of the past.
All the has been left behind is my ashes.
Wow, I feel so sad.
Yes, sadsad.
Haha, the power of sarcasm.
Anyway, we had NDP rehersal on Thursday,
and I got a bruise at my hip cause of the saxophone moving up and down repeatedly.
I have not been making sense these few days
I received back my Chinese paper today.
You wouldn't want to know what I got.
Everything is hidden behind this cheerful facade,
you wouldn't know how I feel,
would you?
Have you gone through this before?
Nope, everyone is different.
When everything is stripped away,
all that is left is God and Me.

-God makes all things better.

♥ 11:05 PM

"All That I've Got"

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream * me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

♥ 7:45 PM

The sky is falling.
Literally.
My world is falling around me.
I'm not up for a change.
No wonder I felt a bad feeling the whole of today.
It must be my fault.
I'm not good with changes.
Everything's going to change.
I just can't do it anymore.
The whole world has just poofed.