Sunday, May 11, 2008
♥ 4:28 PM
Okay, lately, I've been thinking about a lot of stuff.
Not sure about this AND that.
Unsure of past decisions (when coming to think of it, that is).
Contrasting and conflicting feelings swirling around.
Accuracy, inaccuracy.
Inadequacy, adequate-ness.
Confused, crystal.
Estatic, umbraged.
Regret, anticipation.
Distance, closeness.
I don't think I'm good enough to be doing this,
it's going to bring me down,
it's going to be a real pain in the ass.
It's gonna hurt.
I never knew that this swirl of feelings could all come in at the same time,
and make me embroiled and turning into my own world.
Sometimes, things never go along the way we want them to.
But all the time, they come out exactly the way they are supposed to.
I'm moving away from you,
and moving towards things that aren't as important as you.
I can't help it.
Everything is a whirlwind,
pulling me here and there,
pushing me here and there.
If I could, I would.
If I can't, I wouldn't.
Break it down for me to see and understand,
give me something to feast upon.
Something that I can gobble up coherently,
something that will get it's message across.
'Cause I just don't know how to feel now.
If things had not turned out this way,
I wouldn't have been able to grow.
But if I didn't grow,
wouldn't life be simpler.
