some hearts <3

2010-10-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

wow, is it global warming or is it just you? i'm burning up, burning up with you babe!

is your dad a thief? cause he stole the stars and put them in your eyes.

I lost my teddy bear, will you sleep with me
i lost my number, can i have yours?

i'm a plant, and you make me grow, my sunshine.

baby, you're just the one to restart my heart

aren't you tired, you've been running through my brain.

did it hurt when you fell from heaven?

i'm drowning in your eyes babe, throw me a float!

I hope you know how to do CPR, cause you just took my breath away

do you take first aid? because i'm breathless and i need mouth to mouth treatment

hmm, if i could rearrange the alphabet I would put you & I together

Am I dead, Angel? Cause this must be heaven!

YOU'RE SO HOT WHEN I LOOK AT YOU, I GET A TAN

sorry, i don't know how to complete this equation. does me+you= love?

i'm on fire, turn on your sprinkler

Are you the interior designer? cause I SAW you and the room became beautifukl
You must be a damn good broom, cause you swept me wayyyy off my feet

"i have two words for you. i love you" BUT YOU AND I ARE ONE

you're my forever. you're my always.
Are you from Tennessee? Cause you're the only TEN I see
You are a 9.999. Well, you'd be a perfect 10 if you were with me.
Please help the homeless. Take me home with you.
I can figure out the square root of any number in less than 10 seconds. What? You don’t believe me? Well, then, let’s try it with your phone number.

Are you a parking ticket, cause you've got "fine" written ALL OVER you.
By looking at you I can tell you're 36-25-36, which by the way are all perfect squares.
If I were a stop light, I'd turn red everytime you passed by, just so I could stare at you a bit longer.

i wanna bag you like some groceries

I may not be a genie but I can make your dreams come true
are you an earthquake? cause you just shook my world.
Can I take a picture of you, so I can show Santa just what I want forChristmas.
is your name Gilette? cause you're the best a man can get.
How can I know so many hundreds of digits of pi and not the 7 digits of your phone number?
For a third-world country, you're pretty well-developed.
Stop, drop, and roll, baby. You are on fire.
You're so beautiful that you made me forget my pickup line.
You look cold. Want to use me as a blanket?
Hey...somebody farted. Let's get out of here.
Did you fart, cause you blew me away.
You're so beautiful that you made me forget my pickup line.

Do you have a Bandaid? Because I just scraped my knee falling for you.

so many songs to say how i feel

2009-10-22T10:27:00.002+08:00

You make me smile like a sun,
Fall outta bed, sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record,
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool,
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Let's get out of this town tonight
Nothing but dust in the shadows
Gone by morning light
Somewhere we won't ever get caught, ever be found
Baby, let's just get out of this town

I wish this moment was ours to own it, and that it would never leave.
Long gone, baby!

2009-10-08T21:10:00.001+08:00

irrational stupid but whatever
you make my stomach roil and it's done
you made me hate you.

everything and nothing

2009-09-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

Everything and nothing everything and nothing everything and nothing everything and nothing everything and nothing everything and nothing.

Done, with your lies,
baby now my tears dry

Everything and nothing everything and nothing,
jily you're my kryptonite

right here right now

2009-09-17T19:56:00.004+08:00

When it gets so hard, you can't even do anything else but be completely consumed by it, you know it's bad.

I wish this moment was ours to own it, and that it would never leave.

Each time, I meant it.

Departure's always imminent, it's just when. And now when obviously I'm losing everything, I need to hold on tight. And never let go.

finished

2009-09-11T17:15:00.003+08:00

What I want to know doesn't always equate to what I need to know, so perhaps we'll stick to the need-to-know basis, and leave me out of everything, cause I find that whenever I come within close proximity to any of you, I'm just left with frazzled nerves and hauntings of empty promises.
If you couldn't keep them, don't even bother making them, because I'm tired of finding excuses for you.
Maybe we should stop trying to find endings to everything that's happening, why are we even stuck. I've made up my mind, and you've obviously made your choice, so this is behind us.
It should be obvious that I miss you, but everything has to come to that eventual end, we just pushed ours slightly earlier, so what's the harm, hah.
You can't have your pie and eat it.
You're tired of finding allowances, and I'm tired of even trying.

two is better than one

2009-09-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Cause maybe maybe maybe.

there has to be a reason

2009-09-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

Smells, sounds and feels like you.

Wrong perception, I was too quick to judge, thinking you had it in you-

turns out you're just like the rest.

I'm sorry I treated you the same, but at least I learnt from my wrongs.

How to save a life, how to prevent it from further distruction,

I wouldn't know right would i,

you should

2009-08-29T00:45:00.003+08:00

You should know it, you know why.

And yet you still told me, and broke my heart into a million pieces.

You know why.

I miss you come back come back/

I said it already i give in

no surprise

2009-08-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow

There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow

God knows we tried to find an easier way

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

2009-08-23T18:26:00.003+08:00

3 words, 8 letters, and I'm yours.

should've started running

2009-08-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughing with you

I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through

'Cause I know there's no life after you

--------------------

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought to doubt you;

Im better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces

And spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you.

here we go again,

2009-08-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

Here we go again,
it's happening again isn't it/

should've said no.
was it worth it, was she worth it.

♡

2009-08-07T21:28:00.005+08:00

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' ♡

And the opposite of love would be apathy, that's what I feel for you now.
I give up trying to make things alright, if you're so insistent I'm in the wrong, evil and inhumane.
I'm tired of holding on, I'm sick with the acknowledgement of lies.

It clutches, it grabs, and I'm left with no choice,

when I see you, it's "Oh f,"

I grab my tail and run.

You don't even call my name.

2009-06-24T22:26:00.003+08:00

k i'm sorry i'm tired i'm sorry i was a bitch,
i'm sorry for even being alive.
just put the blame on me i give up

never say never

2009-06-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

don't let me go, don't let me go.

don't change don't go don't forget

2009-06-21T10:52:00.000+08:00

Love you so very much <3

don't change don't go don't forget

get ready, get set, don't go/

2009-06-20T10:46:00.000+08:00

Get ready, get set, don't go/

I can't make you stay, but you won't let me go.

butterfly fly away

2009-06-18T20:51:00.003+08:00

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

I give up, I give up, I don't want to fight anymore, you can fly away, I'll miss you like crazy, but just fly away. I don't want to torment myself anymore, I don't want to make things difficult for you either, so just fly away. I miss you so much, but you can fly away.
I don't want to make myself umbraged.
Maybe it's me, maybe it's you, but we've lost it already anyway. It doesn't make sense anyway, cause I don't think you want me anymore, and I'm too tired of holding on.

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

I'll miss you and love you, always.

2009-06-11T21:17:00.004+08:00

'cause when you've lost it all, you don't even feel pain.

come back to me, come back to me.

Conflicting emotions, conflict within oneself. 'Cause I've no idea what to do with you running in and out, please don't go, but please don't come. I don't know how to express it, I miss you, but I don't wanna talk to you, I love you, but I hate you. It goes round and round, and how am I supposed to make sense of anything,

what do i do with you.;

that's what you get

2009-06-04T19:46:00.004+08:00

That's what you get when you let your heart win,

Oh I'm glad I had an awesome time at RMUN today! Hahaha late start (for me, literally) but things picked up and yayeee, Pris is happy! (:

It was crazy, and I must say, I didn't fall asleep, no matter what you guys think! I really didn't! But my efforts to watch Step Up were constantly thwarted by the directors walking around. Epic failures to throw note paper = HAHAHAHAHA. I really can't wait for more tomorrow, can't wait for what we'll see, what with dinner and dance and what not. RMUN ftw! <3

Somehow I get the feeling I've already lost you and I won't be able to get you back.

edit: ew i don't want you anymore you suck like shit and you are so gross don't talk to me.

i dreamt.

2009-06-03T20:06:00.002+08:00

I dreamt, and thought, trying to make head and tail out of this big mess.

I guess maybe RMUN wasn't as stressful as I thought, but I guess I do want to do better than I did last year. If only I were more involved in the issue, hahaha. But I must say I do want to forge strong friendships as I did last year. Ah, developing a concerted response to maritime piracy, I'm really impressed by some of the delegates! Woah, thank God for the jokes thrown around, or I might just fall asleep. I want to do well this yearrrrr! Today was just the starting and I can't wait for how everything will turn out tomorrow and on D&D day! I love the fact that Deborah's around :)

I'm really looking forward to everything, I guess :)

It's this huge mess I'm trying to run out of, but you're not making it easy. Everywhere I go, I turn around and see a print you've made. I can't run from you. We tried pulling it back, but I think you just don't want to. I want to, but you don't give me a chance. You've got a new group, but I don't, and you don't want me anymore.

exclusively yours

2009-06-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

Exclusively exclusive.

Losing myself

2009-05-30T23:19:00.002+08:00

When did I trade in my ideals for fairytales, and when did I trade in my heroes for ghosts? Why.

Is who I am a reminding ghost to my old self, am I just here to haunt myself into oblivion, cause it would seem so blatant I'm the only one actually plaguing myself this way? I'm scared of who I've become.

'Cause if I did mean anything, I wouldn't be in this position.

I was losing myself to somebody else

But now I see

I don't wanna pretend

So this is the end of you and me/

cause i'm sorry

2009-05-19T21:09:00.002+08:00

I don't know where it all went wrong, I have no idea as to what happened, but what lies in its stead is a huge gaping hole that just consumes and swallows me full. It meant so much to me, you meant so much, but to see everything just fall apart into fragments that hardly even exist anymore, I feel split into pieces, and I'm lost. What do I do now? 'Cause in your stead is just this emptiness.

Nothing has even come close to even filling your place.

I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry and i miss you so very much.

2009-05-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

2009-05-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

"[But] detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let theexperience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it."

I'm so stressed i don't even have the energy to be irritated or affected anymore.
hook me up/

theory of a deadman-

2009-05-03T10:20:00.004+08:00

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives
Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

2009-04-22T11:10:00.002+08:00

cause i said we're to remain positive and optimistic. it's terrifying staying at home and facing your demons by yourself. when there's no one else around, everything just starts closing in on you, your heart beats faster, you glance around furtively, afraid of what's around. i tried so hard, and come so far, but these fears still bring us over the edge, once, twice. you let slip every once in a while, cause you can't help it. how are we supposed to get out of this nightmare, a break to be met with crazy schedules after. is it worth it.

aren't you just afraid of yourself? i am.

have we traded in our heroes for ghost?

2009-04-21T12:21:00.006+08:00

Have we traded in our heroes for ghosts?

beds, pillows and tissue/

not anymore,

2009-04-18T16:26:00.003+08:00

I'm over you asking me when you know I'm not okay.

I'm not going to make excuses anymore,

not anymore.

what've you got if you ain't got love,

2009-04-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

What've you got if you ain't got love

The kind that you just want to give away,

As the sun set, she looked down, contemplating what she would miss when she left. A step forward, and everything would be forgotten. A step back, and she would be thrust back into the world wrought with pain and misery.

It's okay to open up

Go ahead and let the light shine through,

Despondent, desperate and in despair, she grasped for a single straw of hope, attempting to reach out. She had never felt such angst and affliction, at no time had she felt thus backed against the wall, with no one to confide in.

I know it's hard on a rainy day

You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone,

"You will never understand what I'm going through, just leave me alone."

Echoing strains of what she thought reverberated around in the shell of her head. Her many thoughts seemed to big to contain in her head, and she felt the weight of the world on her shoulders.

But don't run out on your faith;

Snapshots of her life flashed by, reminding her of what she had. Poised on the edge of the day, poised on the edge of becoming someone else, she took that step.

Your past doesn't make you, your decisions do.

to write love on her arms

2009-04-15T18:43:00.006+08:00

I may not know it,

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most,

Just gotta keep going.

"We have to be lost to find ourselves."

Did I lose myself, or did you lose me? We endeavour to hang on to that tiniest thread of what we are, but once we slip up, and lose that resolve, we let go of that thread, and we lose ourselves.

How are we supposed to find ourselves, when we're so messed up? The turbulences crash all around us, but if we keep on going, we miss the intricacies of life, we miss out on the chance to take a whiff of the flowers, we can never retrieve the chance we let escape, we face desolation ultimately. If we lose ourselves on the way to finding ourselves, what can we say?

We often glaze across what we already have, "ah it's no big deal", or "she'll be there haha", insignificance flickering in our eyes, but how often do we contemplate the truth- is she really going to be there the whole way, or is it really no big deal.

I worked so hard, for this inadequacy and return?

How are we supposed to escape this hypocrisy.

"The façade brandished out was a mask of what I wished I could feel, rather than that whirlwind of emotions I was undergoing, the confusing spiral of inadequacy and fear coupled with disappointment I inevitably was going to face if we lost [the match]. "

cause i know how it feels

2009-04-14T21:04:00.006+08:00

'Cause I know how it feels,

to have your whole world come crashing down.

I love using words to express how I feel, but somehow I lost that flair for bringing out exactly how I feel through this very means. It's like I lost a friend, I lost a limb, I lost my vent.

Liars and hypocrites as all go.

failed lit, babe.

2009-04-13T19:53:00.003+08:00

You were always what I was sure of, you had yet to fail me. You always came through, even when I thought everything was messed up, you just consistently held up for me, you never failed to ease the ache in my heart. You never failed me...

yet I failed you.

The angst I feel, I don't have the finnesse to flounder gracefully, I dropped with a resounding, jarring crash. You ceased to be an indulgence.

seasonal patterns

2009-04-11T19:32:00.004+08:00

Seasonal patterns, jaunty twirls, pretty prints.

The rain pelted with stunning regularity, the liberating fall of the rain watering flora and fauna, cleansing away the stains inflicted. Standing under the rain, arms outstretched, down it came, on and on, again and again, a repetitive cycle never ceasing. Completely drenched by the time the rain simmered down to a gradual stop, I wondered where were you, where were you.

Amanda, I love love love you! You're always like a breath of fresh air, you never cease to crinkle your face into that smile whenever you see me, you always try to make it a point to understand how I'm feeling, and I know there are always more to you than just what's on the surface. You've been steady like a rock, and constant. We both love Strawberry Collon! IT'S THE BEST RIGHT, I KNOW, I TAUGHT YOU THE JOYS AND PLEASURES OF IT! Strawberry Collon ftw! Despite working hard and feeling like it has come to nought, we can always look at it from a different perspective- half-empty or on the way to being full. Love you lots, xoxo!

fading,

2009-04-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

You know what you'll see when you tear me up and look inside?
You'll see nothing but blood and gore, nothing worth a second glance, nothing worth mourning over.

I have no idea why you didn't pick her instead of me in the beginning,
you should have.
What's the use of living in the past, you ask me.
Aren't we supposed to learn from past mistakes,
I'm learning now;
although you mean the world to me,
it's painfully obvious I don't mean what I once did,
so it's over.

I've never been glib, I've never tried to nurse a pain of this extent before, but I don't want to fight. But because I treasure you so, it's over. No rerun, no backturn.

thnks fr th mmrs

resplendent glory

2009-04-09T21:56:00.007+08:00

Resplendent in all your glory,

Panadol's brilliant, it cures you, it makes you feel good, but what happens when you're fine? It becomes useless.

When you find you, come back to me.

2009-04-07T20:29:00.004+08:00

I'll let you go, I'll set you free,
And when you've seen what you need to see,
When you find you, come back to me.

I love you David Cook! Have I already said that?

What makes people all the more susceptible to pain is that, knowing if we don't feel it, we're dead. The silhouette of you is gradually ebbing away to nothingness. The feeling of you is creeping away, making me totally insensitive to you. The smell of you no longer invading my senses. Our memories slowly trickling away. Your embrace nothing more than a remembrance fading away. The looks that flit through your face no longer lingering. It's inexplicably leaving, illicitly changing to suit the patterns of the clouds on the sky. You used to affect me so much, till I realised you don't actually mean as much as I assumed. Statures I put in place painstakingly for you falling apart. It'll sting, it'll hurt, and I may even cry for a while, but spilt milk can never be taken back, resolute decisions the same. I thought I would fall apart without you, but I've come so far in leaps and bounds, you thought you'd see me fall, but I'm gonna stand so tall, and I won't forget the process it took me to come thus far. Whenever I remember, it'll be of me moving on, putting everything behind.

So even if it hurts, I know it'll just mean that I'm alive, and that I've a road I've to continue down on. It may rub your nipples raw, block up your entire pee hole, cease you from walking up and down the stairs like a normal person, and make you go insane, but it's life.

SYF TMR OMG OMG FAINT!!!
(Okay yes I've noticed that yes, maybe all the added stress is going to my head and making me ridiculously long-winded. But I'm thankful for the insights brought along, I suppose)

//But seriously if you don't want me, you should tell me, and not leave me hanging. I love you so, but isn't it rather selfish to keep it for yourself, and keep me from moving on, or rather, from actually finding another group to set myself off on? If you've done so, you should just say so, because I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired, and I want to move on, but you're making it hard. Let's break it off.
I've deleted it. So we can start anew. Honestly, I don't want you.
Initially you brought fun and laughter, but as we drew closer, you revealed a side of yourself which I thought was real, but now thinking back, it was all a lie. And I can't really be bothered to go figure out what's true and what's not, so let's leave it at that. We were close, then we drifted, and now taunts of the friendship we had previously haunt me all day long. The closer we get, the more pain we undergo. I openned a side that was vulnerable, to you, but what did you do. Disregard it, throw it to a side, and you can't even be bothered to acknowledge it after one sentence. Truthfully, I must say I expected more. Why do I have such high expectations, you may ask. Well, I don't. But you don't understand. I didn't tell anyone but you. And you flung it to the side, and focused on yourself instead. Is this what we get for openning up? Flashcheck: I don't trust you anymore. I told you that but since you don't actually listen to what I say, HAHA, let's throw away our inhibitions and go on stark crazes; showdown. 'Cause I told you I don't matter;

If I were to disappear off the face of this earth, no one would even notice.
Maybe you needn't come back,

you found me;

2009-04-06T20:37:00.002+08:00

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where've you been?"
He said, "Ask anything."

The view from the bottom has to be vividly captured in the memories of those who have experienced it.

I now understand why Jodi Picoult's books have that wry feel to it, and why people are always so enraptured by her stories, myself included. Her books always, inevitably, have a death weaved in intricately along the lines and the pages. The books, oftentime in paperbacks, are a representative of life for us- it dies off. Whether or not the unwanted ending comes in the initial pages or at the last throes of the captivating read, death, ultimately, although a pain, is irrevocable. Unavoidable, ineluctable, death is an ending we all face, in a matter of time.

Is that why, so oftentimes, many of us cry whilst reading her books? Because we ourselves identify with the tragedies unraveling, in different contexts, perhaps?

It creeps up on you, you'll never know when it's gonna pounce and take away all that you've known your entire life. In Jodi Picoult books, when there's a death in the beginning, the survivors mourn, but by the end, the bereaved's family finds relief and the grieving stops, ending on a bittersweet note. All's well ends well? Just maybe. On the other hand, when the death happens on the last sentence of the last paragraph of the last page, contrary to when the death happens early, we're left empty and yearning.

Ironic how everyone wants a long life, but the consequences of that never fail to bring along sadness and umbrage for a longer time. If you died at 50, and touched 100 lives during that period, as opposed to dying at 20, and touching 25 lives instead, which age brings along more aches and stings, with the gripe of paroxysms?

In my honest opinion, I would like to die earlier in that book that's written about me. I would die earlier, spare myself the agony of looking down and seeing a group of my close family and friends in pain, or spare myself the affliction if no one even cries for me.

Perhaps it would be preferable to not even be born at all. A far superior option as opposed to having toil through the perils of this world.

nothing.

2009-04-04T10:08:00.003+08:00

The effective word would be nothing.
When I think back to the times when we were Sec 1, and though everything was so screwed up at home, you could always cheer me up, you inevitably had that way to make me smile. Now when I think of what I've done, I'm honestly sorry, and if there were a way for me to retract my feelings, I would do that. No one could have beat the place you ursuped in my life just then, but you changed it. When the words left my lips, when the thought crossed my mind, undeniable regret came in tow, and that myriad of emotions brought along memories. Things I wish I could forget, but now I know how impossible that is. The fault was always mine. It just comes between, and I haven't been a stranger to that. God knows how many times. Some things just weren't meant to be, and upsetting the balance isn't going to change a thing. Laughter will take the place of what was meant to be, but it won't take away the blame and regret that will be around. Perpetually.

//I miss you so fricking much, but I ___________________ .

edit 951pm - I stand corrected no use no change waste of time it's raging don't bother
Daddy mummy i miss you so much why do you have to go for so long i wish you didn't have to be gone for so long can you please fly home now i miss you so much :(

homecoming

i did it for you,

2009-04-03T20:56:00.002+08:00

You must be a damn good broom, cause you just swept me off my feet.

Dysphoric, disillusioned, embittered, excaberating, impasse.

Cause it's crashing down, in your avalanche.

when you find you, come back to me

2009-04-02T20:51:00.003+08:00

Simplicity, back to basics.

That would mean, when I didn't need you.
You haunt me, when I have no desire or wish whatsoever for you to invade these thoughts.
I don't like this side of you, don't bother with me.

/When you find you, come back to me

Perfect, you are.

2009-03-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

(To you out there, you know who you are)

so small

2009-03-28T10:13:00.001+08:00

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small

you

2009-03-25T20:23:00.003+08:00

It's because at times like thise, I feel so stressed and pressured, but I don't see you making a move to actually help relieve me, or make an effort to comfort me. I'm unable to move forward, and yet I see you playing and making a fool of yourself. I'm working so hard, so very hard, I'm pushing myself to the very end, I'm teetering on the brink of collapse and still you insist on stuff being done your way.
Do you know how it feels like when you're at your wits end and you've no where else to run? No where to put your face, no one to to approach, no one to seek solace in? I'd love to confide in you, but you never gave me the chance, you're always otherwise occupied, I never seem important enough, and honestly, I'm rather tired of always acting on your whims and fanices, instead of actually going about the way I want to.
Why are we like this, it's inane, it's insane, but we seem unable to change. I'm like a puppet in your ongoing calliope melody,
but we're not in sync anymore, I can't dance on anymore.
The string broke.

your name

2009-03-22T21:22:00.004+08:00

Your Name
As morning dawns and evening fades
You inspire songs of praise
That rise from earth to touch Your heart and glorify Your Name

Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save
But Your Name

Jesus, in Your Name we pray
Come and fill our hearts today
Lord, give us strength to live for You and glorify Your Name

Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save but Your Name

Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save but Your Name

2009-03-10T10:31:00.002+08:00

It's all my fault, because I broke you guys up.
I'm sorry, I'll layoff, I won't go near her, I won't talk to her, I won't do anything.

I don't want anything, I just want everything to be all right.

I won't, I won't, I won't.
You shouldn't either; -
you miss her, and so you should go back to her.
You haven't forgotten, she hasn't forgotten, and inevitably I haven't either.

What am I supposed to say when the best part of me was always you

Whatever it takes,

2009-02-24T20:28:00.004+08:00

Okay we'll put them up one by one, and when Pris is happy,

maybe it'll be like, mass uploading on Facebook! (:

SO I'm totally addicted and hooked onto David Cook!

He cooks up a storm and I feel like eating him!!

OKAY I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR MY BIRTHDAY ACTUALLY MAYBE NOT I'M JUST EXCITED OVERALL AND I FEEL LIKE JUMPING UP AND DOWN NON-STOP BUT BELIEVE ME THIS WILL BE GONE TOMORROW, I JUST NEED TO BE IN THE MOMENT AND LIVE IT OUT LOUD RIGHT NOW, IF NOT I MIGHT JUST DIE I HAVE NO IDEA

much loves, <3

2009-02-22T17:45:00.002+08:00

Frolicking, studying and many exciting storiesssss! <3

Love you all muchie muchieeeeee!

Xoxo

disgusting

2009-02-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

You shouldn't try so hard to sound so enigmatic or wtv, cause it just disgusts me.
In short,
you, disgust me.

breathe

2009-02-16T20:39:00.002+08:00

I can't breathe without you but I have to.

Insurmountable mountains piling up, loss of control, fading into nothing, I can't continue.

Like a freshly baked cookie,

2009-02-15T17:06:00.003+08:00

Like a freshly baked cookie, V day's over. Hugs and kisses goodbye all,

Over it, over you, over us.
no taking back sunday

Did you give me a chance,

2009-02-13T21:42:00.002+08:00

Did you give me a chance, did you ever try to wear your heart on your sleeve.

I give up on you completely, there's nothing left to miss or wtv. You don't mean to sound so desperate, you don't mean to steal, you don't mean to covet, you don't meant to hurt- but you did.

What's the use of wishing you didn't do it, when you already did, the pain's felt inside. What's the use of apologising when it's done out of a sense of obligation, what's the use of apologising, when you don't really want to, what's the use when you don't mean it, what's the use when you still doubt the other person.

Common tests are coming so soon, and I'm really unprepared, I have no idea how to do wtv, and I'm just really freaked out. What does a person with an IQ of minus regions do to prepare herself for the common tests, what does a person intellectually challenged have to do to do well.
I'm a mess, a screw-up, a cock-up, I'm so messed up I can't even express how I feel.
I can't even speak.

I just wanna show you, she don't even know you

Alison webcams horribly!

2009-02-05T21:57:00.002+08:00

Alison looks like this when she's happy.And she looks like this too.HAHAHAHAH SHE'S DOING HER OKTO SIGN THIS IS THE BEST PICTURE EVER.

ALISON SERIOUSLY ROCKS CAUSE WHEN I'M FEELING HORRID AND SICK AND EVERYTHING, SHE CAN TOTALLY MAKE ME LAUGH AND LMAO TILL I COUGH AND CHOKE AND NEARLY PUKE WTF HAAHAHAHHAHAH

Don't hang up,

2009-01-31T17:13:00.003+08:00

'Cause I can't get through to you anymore.
Stuck in time, stuck on you.

School's been crazy, I can't stand it. Unstoppable torrent of tests, flooding, intoxicating every pore of my body. How are we going to continue on like this?

Cause I need to know what made me unbeautiful,

Ain't No Reason,

2009-01-27T22:13:00.002+08:00

Hey dear,
I've no idea why you're feeling this way, but I hope you cheer up, and feel better soon k! I've no idea what happened, but I hope you know that I'll be here for you to support you and be with you k ;)

Love you lots! <3

Drunken stupors, headsplitting hangovers, and inebriated crazeeee.

My life is over.

2009-01-24T15:45:00.001+08:00

Evil Nigelina thinks I look like that,
and is going to show everyone that ):<

THAT'S WHEN I KNOW MY LIFE IS OVER!!

A Lonely September.

2009-01-23T21:29:00.004+08:00

I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did/

I wish and wish and wish.
I miss you so much, I wish I could take back everything, but this mess is just terribly hard to get rid of ):

On top of the world, do anything be anything?
Maybe not.

Outraged outbursts

2009-01-22T22:00:00.006+08:00

Outraged outbursts.
You drove her up the wall/

"mook says:
and my name is angel mokpicassobeethovenphelpsspearsbanks tian shi"

ANGEL MOK PICASSOBEETHOVENPHELPSSPEARSBANKS TIAN SHI,

YOU ARE THE BEST PERSON I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH <3

Insinuations

2009-01-20T20:36:00.003+08:00

Insensitive insinuations.
You drive me up the wall/

Learning to fall.

2009-01-19T20:13:00.003+08:00

I'm learning to fall,
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry 'bout me.
Don't try this at home
Pretend you don't see
I don't wanna know that
you know it should have been me.

Isolation, insolent in it's own right.
Checkered pantsuits, flowered blouses and incredible gasps. She moves through the multitudes, thousands part for her. The bustling crowd ceases to commotionize. We gape, amazed at her flamboyance and distinct lack of coordination. A picture gone wrong, an abrupt splash over monotony and mutinised order. Zip and dash, salt and pepper, surprise over shock, she stands out like a sore thumb. What went so wrong, what couldn't be carried out properly. A real thing, I know it by the feeling, the moment when we mean it, will play out like a scene straight off the screen. Nobody wants to be the last one there, everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Turning into dust, playing house in the root winds of us. Running back to the fire, when there's nothing left to say is like chasing the very last train whe it's too late. Too late, too much, too heartbreaking. Time drips like a leaky faucet, never ceasing, never hesitating, never pausing. It just trickles down, before finally flooding us. We can't run, we can't hide, we can only dread the debauchery.

Clarice, omg I love you so much,
hehhe you're so fun to gossip and bitch with! :O
I particularly loved gossiping about ____ today! Omg fun fun fun <3
I will go fishing with you, since you enjoy it so much (:

Catfights with dog people.

Hates, misses, hates, misses
2009-01-16T21:02:00.003+08:00

Pulled taut like a string, we're strained, we're running away, we're leaving...
we broke.
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real
It was poetry in motion, it was a picture out of a book.
I don't love you anymore, I don't even want to see you, I want you to evacuate out of my life asap. You're worth nothing, I wasted too much time and energy on you only to be repaid this way. What I feel for you falls short of nothing of hate.
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
... you lied.
No more love.

Wow, wow.

2009-01-15T22:05:00.001+08:00

Try to give, but it's not enough, to make it all okay.
I'm sorry, really ):

Heya Beautifulllllll (:

2009-01-13T10:53:00.004+08:00

Heya beautifulllllllllllll :)

I really love you, and I'm estatic about your results, it's great, and no matter how well others may have done, you still made improvement so overall it's a wonderful thing! Kudos yes! (:

As you go about choosing which poly or JC you're planning to continue your studies in, heh, I'm supporting you! Afterall, that's what sisters are for!

Although I may not voice out that you are important to me, you really are. You help me in Math, you offer your help sometimes when I don't even need it. You're always there to listen to my complaints, we can go crazy together, and yay I love you <3

OMG YAY LOVE TODAY IT'S A HOLIDAY WE CAN ALL GO CRAZY AND BE HAPPY YAY YAY YAY HAHAHAH STUDYING IN THE AFTERNOON LATER SEE YOUUUUUU BABES!

Stress, gorging, and much deserved rests <3

Flair, i dont have.

2009-01-12T20:31:00.006+08:00

If I could turn back time, I would turn back one year.

I would do better in my studies, I would concentrate on what I could do, I wouldn't try to over-acheive, I would treasure my friends, I would aim for the best, and only the best.

"I guess I need my life to change."

"I need to change my life."

The simple sentence structure carrying so much meaning to some, and yet to others, nothing at all. Do you plan on waiting for your life to change for you, or are you going to make a conscious effort to change it? Is this debacle of rut going to control your life, or do you treat this as an infinitely vicious cycle that never runs dry? If you hurt, is that going to happen indefinitely, or will you throw in the towel only when you've had enough? Will these crimson stains be enough to bring you back, will the anguish on their faces throw you off course and haul you back in? Break this hierarchy, trounce these traditions, collapse under the enslaught of emotions. The line's becoming blurred, the thin line of right and wrong, we can't see where we're headed, we couldn't simply throw heed to the wind. Best of both worlds, I tried, you wouldn't. If you lock me out, this routine of insane repetitions will never cease. I can't try too hard with you. I rest my case.

I know I failed, I know I can't do it. You can condemn me for it, but I won't become smarter overnight. I'll work hard, put in my best.

Straightfaced.

2009-01-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

This straightfaced, straightjacket feeling. We're not gonna move, we're not gonna change, we're gonna stay this way, we'll stay suffering in pain. You don't want it, I don't want it, the change, the pain, indescriable, inexplicable, cutting through, searing through.
We've never been better, we'll never be better, we're staying this way.
How we feel so numb we don't even flinch when something hits us, how we block out the rest till we can't feel, how we go through so much we think we won't feel anymore pain till something whacks us straight in the face. That's when we know we've lost it all.
Insurmountable.

best friends go shopping together

2009-01-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

Best friends go shopping together right after a fight :)
And just because I promised Clarice I wouldn't talk bad about her (cause I'm not bitchy from head to toe, despite her protests), I declare-

CLARICE I LOVE GOING HOME WITH YOU LET'S BE BEST FRIENDS AND GO HOME TOGETHER EVERYDAY!!!

You make me happy!! :D
I am tall, not 120cm k. I do not laugh at everything, I do not have a weird laugh, and I WANT TO BE YOUR BESTFRIEND HAHAHA, I swear I'll be better than Xinyi cause I am shorter, fatter, stupider and everything. Perfect for youuuu! HAHAHAHHAH

Erased, deleted. You were just an errata in my life. Which is striving for perfection (:

New Year, New Beginnings, New Friends

2009-01-03T11:41:00.002+08:00

New year = wow.
New beginning = scary.
New friends = interesting.
New year seems to be a time for the new, and getting rid of the old. It's gonna happen alright (:

PB Camp was fun, haha, cause of TP gang yayyyyyy <3
We had so much fun together, I'll never forget it! Now Orientation's just coming along, we'll do another brilliant job unitedly!

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Promised Post to Bindhu (:

2008-12-28T09:57:00.005+08:00

Bindhu, my deaaaaaaar (:

I, swear, cross my heart and hope to die (!!), enjoyed talking and spending lots of time with you these few days,

you never fail to cheer me up, to make me smile,

or laugh with your outrageous comments.

I'm envious, positively green with envy, at your expansive vocabulary and innuendo witticisms!
No wonder I'm always decked out in green ;)

You're one of the few friends that I can say truly cares about me,

for who I am, and not who I can be, or who I'm with.

Gundasami (omg) you even listen to me when I'm vomiting profanities, ranting on about my father and the ridiculous, absurd things he has banned me from or is restricting me from doing.

I love you muchie much <3

Your dad must be a theif, cause he stole the stars and put them in your eyes.

Omg prefect camp today, ending on Tuesday.
Miss me, miss me, miss me!!

Spotlights and catfights,
just as I promised<3

Vera Wang Princess <3

2008-12-27T11:54:00.005+08:00

I know what I want already, so if you haven't gotten me my Christmas present, or you're already planning for my birthday (which is in 2 months btw), here's a list of what I want (badly):

(In order of how badly I want it)

#1 Vera Wang Princess
#2 DKNY Be Delicious (I want the Pink one!)
#3 Lancome Magnifique

Okay I will update this list another day! (:
I LOVE CLARICE MOK!
SHE IS GONNA BE MY FAVOURITE CLASSMATE NEXT YEAR CAUSE SHE IS GONNA LET ME COPY ALL HER HOMEWORK YAY I LOVE CLARICE MOK!!!

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMASSSSS <3
and a Happy New Year!

Omg let me tell you how I want to scream profanities now.

Gotta Be Somebody

2008-12-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO COPY MATH HOMEWORK AAAHHHHHHH

I WANT TO COPY MATH HOMEWORK SO DAMN BADLY!!!
Gotta be somebody

Stop.

2008-12-21T10:53:00.000+08:00

Stop lying.

I enjoyed yesterday, thanks much<3

JOY I MISSED YOU

2008-12-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

JOY OMG YOU'RE FINALLY BACK

I MISSED YOU SOOOO MUCH!! :D

Fall from Grace

2008-12-16T22:51:00.001+08:00

That's when I know I don't like you that much anymore.

2008-12-15T22:31:00.001+08:00

If you don't even trust me, I don't want to trust you.

buh-bye

2008-12-15T15:30:00.001+08:00

We're burning bridges.

Aggression.

2008-12-11T21:44:00.003+08:00

It's the season to be jolly, falalala!

Whenever Shabbna tells me about her going for carolling practice, I feel like breaking into song and singing some silly Christmas song. Well, it certainly is the season! (:

While many things may fade into oblivion,

there'll always be some that never age, never leave,

or turn yellow with time.

Aroma wafting luring me into the Garden of Eden,

temptation's taunts.

We'll run, we'll run alright.

It's been a long time coming.

2008-12-10T19:57:00.005+08:00

It's been a long time coming; I'm finally here on my own.
Lies, backstabbing, double entredes- I'm sick and tired of it all. When I look at you, I feel inconsolable grieve. I'm grieving over a friend lost, a friend missing, a friend I really wish to see again. Though you're there, I know the previous you- a you that was unselfish, will never resurface. We can always hope for the best, pray for the better, but the bottomline comes down to it, I'm not going to try anymore. I'm done with it.
Immense pity to those that move around in circles with you. You come to me with your ramblings, your lies. Spare yourself the effort, take a breath, think of what you've done. Your facade has been seen through. I'll never trust you the way I did anymore.
Yes, if I could, I would change what I did, I wouldn't have treated you that way, but the truth remains resolute, unshaking and never wavering. You were the one who did it, the one who pushed me away.

We'll never ever go back.

/edit I just feel like absolute shit, no idea why. Disregard this. It doesn't mean a thing to you. Doesn't involve you, does it.

Baaaaack (:

2008-12-10T00:43:00.002+08:00

Rumor has it, so yes it does.
I'm back from my 5day long trip to Malaysia, which was eventful to say the least.
I really enjoyed myself this time, although I do think that this time with everything so topsy-turvy again, how I could even plunge myself back into this vapid thing.
A waste of time, shouldn't have even tried. Opposites attract, they say, and it's proving to be supremely real. I'm tired of this tirade, give it up and just tell me the truth.

if i were a boyyyyyyyy, beyonce would totally marry me.

Insanity

2008-12-03T14:57:00.002+08:00

Do you have a Bandaid? Because I just scraped my knee falling for you.
Okay I can't help it, I love Blair! (L)

Oh well, this is insanity.
If you gave me a day to turn back, I wouldn't ever turn it back.
Despite you flaring up and everything, I wouldn't have done anything differently.
Simple, isn't it.
I hate you.

Myriad of emotions overwhelming, we'll go with the one that surfaces the most-
Anger.

Leaving for Malaysia soon, don't miss me,
Christmas' coming, be sure to get presents <3

GossipGirl

2008-12-02T14:40:00.003+08:00

If I were a stop light, I'd turn red everytime you passed by,
just so I could stare at you a bit longer.

Oh well, holidays.

Hahaha I'll be off to Malaysia tomorrow, aww!

Bbq tonight, excited k! (:

Everything crowding in, we need to take a breather,

I can't rely on you, you've never been truly there,

so what the heck, let's just make the best of it.

Adios to you and have a safe trip!

(You'llneedit!)

Flower quickly fading

2008-11-29T20:49:00.003+08:00

Here today and gone tomorrow,
a wave tossed in the ocean,
a vapor in the wind.

Everything's moving at a snail's pace, I really can't help but think why.
I'm tired of biasness, I'm tired of being stuck behind while everyone's racing to the front.
I'm weary of fighting, I can't help but let go.
It's become painfully blatant how much you've changed and what you crave now,
a far cry from the down-to-earth, old you.
Call me a stick in the mud, whatever,
but perhaps others will see why I pine for what we used to have.
Superficiality consumes one, and never lets go.
When are we going to get past this stage, someone tell me.

I promise, cross my heart and hope to die,
I won't ever blog again until I do your quizzes, alright?

Sylvia come back soon ):

I believe in fairies.

2008-11-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

I wish I could say everything was calming down to a fullstop,

but I guess sometimes it's just really hard to finalise everything,

and just leave it be.

When things do end, it hurts to let go.

With everything just crowding in and insults hurled in my face,

perhaps it's time for me to take a step back and think if I made the right friends,

the right choices, the right moves.

Cause when everything seems so wrong,

how was it ever perfect?

Food for thought.

K, so now I need my fairy to come and whisk me away.

Gossip Girl <3

2008-11-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

I swear, I've gotten hooked back on GossipGirl,

and I'm helpless to do anything about it.

Anndrea got me addicted back on it, and I must declare my love for Blair.

Blair is so pretty, hot, sexy.

GossipGirl is the awesomest ever.

Aaaahh I love you, Blair!

void, open, empty.

2008-11-16T11:12:00.002+08:00

You filled my life, you brought colour in.
I saw the world in a different way.
But now I guess it's time to say goodbye,
because we never once had anything.
Call me stupid, insecure, troublesome, whiny, silly, cynical, critical, whatever.
If I could flush you out of my system with burps,
you would have gone long time ago.
No more lies, no more promises.
No more.
I'm gonna be looking at the world with a new pair of sunglasses, so to speak.

When we say goodbye, it'll be forever.

Just Wanna Be With Youuuuu <3

2008-11-14T20:35:00.006+08:00

You're on my mind, you're in my heart,

it doesn't matter where we are,

even if we're miles aparttt.

No matter where life takes us,

nothing can break us apart.

I just wanna be with youuu <3

Looking to ... ?

2008-11-13T23:00:00.003+08:00

If I didn't care about you so much, I wouldn't feel this way.
I feel like now there's someone right smack in the middle between us,

and this person isn't someone I even know.

I feel exactly like a beggar trying to get some scrap of your leftover attention,

I worry about you, how could I not.

I'm not sure if I regret getting myself in so deep,

but I know that I definitely wouldn't be able to leave this rut now.

I wish I could get out of this rut with you,

but everything's changing, and I'm still left back in time,

stuck behind, unable to move forward.

You've changed in ways I wouldn't dare even try to fathom,

when I look back to the times we shared, the times we actually had our heart to heart talks,

I can't help but develop a sense of nostalgia for the way you were.

The way you cared about me, and sincerely wanted the best for me.

Now when I look into your eyes, I'm wondering if you really mean it,

or if you're just trying to placate me, to get on with whatever you have to do.

I hardly even know anything about you;

I'm just someone you offload on when you're upset or when there's something big/exciting to talk about,

we've drifted too far apart to be on the same wavelength.

Or maybe we were never on the same wavelength, and everything was just my wishful thinking.

'Cause I really do think everything we have/had was all in name,

and we never really had anything substantial to hold on to.

If we could move on, I would certainly try to.

I've no idea what I'm looking to, or what I'm even trying to say,

but I guess I just miss you.

That's Just What You Areeeee;

2008-11-12T21:19:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I'm in love with Womanizerrrrr, but
that's just what you areee ah ah (:

I've this inane urge to scrub the walls of my kitchen toilet,
and hum along tunelessly to all the songs I'm listening to.
I'm really not looking forward to all the camps I'll be going to. I really hope they won't be a complete waste of time, spent in the company of trying people (I don't mean this, of course). If I could, I wouldn't go for band camp! Who wants to stand in the sun and get an uneven tan all over?! Besides, Pris is a very very very lazy person, she won't want to wake up at all, and she'll keep having to do punishments ):

Okay yada yada, enough about lazy pris.
SYLVIA YOU CHEER UP NOW I INSIST!!
IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY SO YOU MUST BE A HAPPY BABY!
OKAY NO NEED TO BE HAPPY YOU CAN BE SAD ALL YOU WANT NOW!!!!
No lah, cheer up alright (;
Happy birthday dear! Love youuuu <3

Skyway Avenueeeeeee!

2008-11-11T20:31:00.004+08:00

SENTOSA SATURDAY! ㋡
If you're freee, come and join us for fun in the sunnnn!

Free and easy, drop me a line if you're gonna come/ wanna come!

I promise not to scare you off with my farts and burps :D

Come please comeeeeeeeeeee <3

We the Kings are the absolute best, I give them all my thumbs up!

Anyway, I saw two people worthy of MFI again today. When will I ever be able to escape this insanity? I have no idea why I always get so irritated in the company of these MFI-wannabes, they just make me want to throw something "accidentally" hit their head, and go, "Omg, I'm sorry, that was your head, isn't it?"

Hypocritical, yes. But how else will I exact my revenge on these hypocrites. Ahhh I feel so mean, so I shan't, and I will just think about We the Kings! <3

If you jump, I will jump too!

Now you see me,

2008-11-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

now you don't.

The Law of Inertia's encumbering me, keeping my butt rooted to anything that's solid.

Ahhhhh woebegone! I had a tres brilliant day! (:

Okay so maybe it started off horridly, but things turned round!

I love going out with Su-May! She is the funniest, and cutest person to watch movies with!

We tried out The Coffin, which was really just too freaky to continue.

So we sneaked out, and begged the man to let us into High School Musical!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I LOVE HSM 3!!!

Okay I must chilllllllllll.

Continuation another day.

It keeps on turning,

2008-11-08T21:41:00.007+08:00

CLARA YOU FAKE OBAMA FAN SEE MUST HIDE YOUR FACE SOMEMORE!!

Duh, I'm a total advocate for Obama :D

What do you mean when you say things have come to an end?

It's a total lie, because there will always be continuations.

I always feel this way on Saturdays- tired, demoralised and spent.

Why do I go to church on Sundays?

To recharge the empty battery, to catch up with my friends, to eye some guy?

I'm so tired of dancing to your tune.

I want my own originality, I don't want to be pulled along by you all the time.

The promises you make, they're all just empty promises,

just something to placate me, an empty shell to make me happy?

Once you're done with me, I'm just strewn casually to the side.

I confided in you, told you stuff which I now regret.

I would have willingly gotten the stars in the sky for you a few weeks back,

but now it's so blatantly clear you're not worth it.

I'm not going to repeat this anymore, I'm tired,

the world will continue without you, it'll keep on turning without you in my life,

the insignificance of a person crystal clear now.

I don't want you anymore, I give up on what we had.

You'll hone your skill, and I'll become as impenetrable as a diamond.

White Horses report another day.

Please tune in.

Ifyoumeanit,i'llbelieveit.

Ifyoutextit,i'lldeleteit.

OBAMA FTW! <3

2008-11-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

Okay I must say how much I love Obama, and how glad I am that he won. Pity Palin is not his Vice-Pres, but oh well, we can't have too much of a good thing (:

Oh Eudora! Cheer up! Get more rest, be a happy baby! :D Afterall, we'll be seeing a lot more of each other next year (:

I'VE GOT A CRUSH ON OBAMA!!

Coffee Shop Soundtrack <3

2008-11-05T20:43:00.002+08:00

Priscilla is in such a good mood today, I shan't even bother to elaborate on why, just in case I find a blemish in this wonderful day and my brilliant mood turns foul.

Let me expound on why I hate chilli:
1. It's icky.
2. It has little red bits in it.
3. It sucks to wash chilli plates.
Besides, I can't take chilli, so why should I love it, when I can't even eat it?

JIAXUAN I AM SO SURE YOU'RE GONNA BE THE BEST SERVANT EVER I'M GONNA PAY YOU IN ADVANCE WITH ALL MY LOVEEEEEEEE (L)

Next Plane Home

2008-11-03T20:54:00.005+08:00

I'm back from China, bet you guys all missed me ;)

China was great fun and alllll :D

I'll post about it some other time, though.

Closure post, this is gonna be.

We're all going our different ways, be it triple, double, or even combined. But I'll miss everyone, no matter whether we were close or not. Way overdue, I believe this post is. All my friends are psychedelic colours, brightening up my life, filling up the blank spaces, adding panache to my life. Flamboyant peacocks running rampant, you add sugar and spice to my life. Zip and dash.

Clara: You were the bestfriend everyone wanted, and I'm thankful for the friendship we have. I'm really glad we're not gonna be split up, and I believe that if we both didn't go to the same class, I would have cried bollocks, I would have cried a river. I guess it's really when you're going to lose something, you find out how much you really treasure it, and how much you need it. Although we may have our many little tiffs, we always make up, and I would never trade your friendship for anything in the world. You're the person who knows when I'm upset, who knows when I'm holding back. You're a friend who really knows me. You understand when I complain, and the bitching sessions we have really help. If not by now, I'd be in jail for beating up and killing many people! I love love you <3

Shabbna: I really meant it that when I think of you, I think of RMUN. When I think of RMUN, I also think of you! You were the awesomest RMUN buddy anyone could ever have! We had so much fun crapping, and complaining together, along with the cool notes we passed during RMUN itself. You brought much insight into my life, you gave me extraordinary, exemplemary advice, and you were always there as a listening ear. You're the prefect buddy I love, we had such fun at DB! I may not have always showed you how much I treasure you, but Shabbna, I really do. <3

Melodi: Ah, so much to say. First day of school in P5 was unforgettable! Birdshit, dogshit, what about catshit? HAHAHAHA, you make me laugh, cause you're hilarious! So were the many GB camps we used to go for together, along with Bindhu! I will never forget the times we have 'am-chio-ed' during Chinese lessons, and all the gossip we shared! You're really a bundle of fun, even when you're trying to be seductiveeee. We're gonna have two more years together, all the more time for me to tease you about the goings of the China trip we just had, hahaha :D Love you lots <3

Esther: I wish you needn't go. You'll definitely be missed! Your wit, pizzazz and randomnity just add a splash of colour wherever you go, don't worry about treading new grounds, you'll fit in anywhere! Everytime I look at a bar of soap, I'll remember you. Everytime I hear about a guinea pig, I'll think of you. Everytime I hear the Phantom of the Opera, I'll think of you fondly ;)

Isabel: Lovely lovely lovely pink! Whenever I see pink, I'll think of you! I'll miss you a lot, seriously. You were always willing to lend a listening ear when I ran into problems, and taking bus home with you have been great, all the trips have been fun! I'll miss turning my head around and talking to you in the Science Lab! True friends will be there for you, and I'll always be around for you. You can tell me whatever (: I wanna go out with you frequently, I wanna play dress-up in your closet! I love youuuu <3

Sara Jane: You tall tall tall person! I'll miss your incessant chatter in class! Your bear hugs are great- nice, warm and enveloping! When I hear the word great, you'll pop into my mind, and I'll think about how great you've been to me. AND I'LL NEVER FORGET THE WORD YOU TAUGHT ME - OCTOGENARIAN! When we're both octogenarians, I expect to be seated next to you, rocking in my chair, checking my false dentures beside you, complaining about our kids or even grandkids together! Of course we can also make time to reminiscent our China trip! You brought major fun into my life, I'll miss your small eyes, small feet, and small talk :D Love youuuuu! <3

Sylvia: I have so much to say to you, and even if I tried, I would never be able to finish it. I can't get rid of you, no matter how hard I try! I wish we were going to the same class. You always listen to me prattle on and on, and although you always complain, you never turn me away, and for that (of course) I'm happy! You've been one skinny but overwhelming bundle of joy and fun! You have the talent of making people happy, but you must remember to not neglect yourself alright! When I'm not around to nag at you, please look after yourself! You have the ability to go far, go ahead and expand your fanbase! GET A GOOD MANAGER K! I must say that I do love you, and I'll miss you a lot <3

Su-May: I'll swim across the ocean for you, if that would mean we would be able to go to the same class! I'm really going to miss you loads :( I wish with all of my heart that we would not need to change classes. You're the first I see when I come to class early, I'm going to miss your laughter, your bouncy hair, you understanding what I mean almost all the time, your jokes, your presence, your hugs. I'm gonna miss you so much :( You've always been there for me, and I really need to apologise about last year, when things between us were not the best, and you nearly did not want to be my friend anymore. We MUST keep in touch, go out together often, watch more movies together alright! :D Housebunny was unforgettable, the day was unforgettable, and it was because I spent it together with you. You bring joy and happiness into my life, I'll miss you so much :( Su-May, I love love love youuuu loads <3

2.1: We may not have always been very united, and we have definitely had more than our fair share of verbal spars, but I believe that these are what makes us so uniquely special. I wish we could move up as a class, but I guess once you've had too much of a good thing, it's always snatched away from you. I'll miss everyone, big, small, cute, pretty, sexy, whatever :D

Where's the plane going to take me, now that my home has been torn apart,

and remanants of it have been strewn all over?

i miss youuuuuu <3

2008-10-28T20:49:00.004+08:00

I miss you, I miss your smile,
and I still shed a tear every once in a while.

I'M IN CHINA, BABE :D
I miss everyone! Lovelovelove!
I MISS MY FAMILYYYY OH SO BADLY
but I'm still having fun, and loving every minute of it.

CLARA I MISS YOU TOO, I WILL BUY LOTS OF PRESENTS :D
I love love love you <3
We will sing sing sing to High School Musical 3,
kiss, hug, hug, kiss,
and make love till the sun comes upppppppp!

Sylvia, omggggg, I know how badly you miss me ;)
I'm not clingy or anything please!
Yeah, omg I'm lovesick for youuuuuuuu :D
Maybe a replacement will come along!
AND DON'T CALL ME WIFEY

I WILL MISS YOU

2008-10-22T21:31:00.002+08:00

I abhor the changes we will all be going through.
But as much as I dreaded posting this entry, I will miss everyone. Some more than others, but all will still be missed.

It's all about you, babeeee/

2008-10-20T20:56:00.005+08:00

Look into my eyes, and you'll know the heart never lies.

Interclass Softball games todayyyyyy.

Tiring yesssss, but I stayed back to watch Sara Jane try out for volleyball.

Woah-ahhh, not bad ehhhhh ;)

I'm trying to spend as much time as I can with everyone nowwww,

we have so little time left together :(

OMG SAME BLOGSKIN SHABBNA!!!

Why did I apply to be a prefect? Why do I want to be a prefect? Why do I deserve to be a Sec3 prefect? Why didn't I think of all these implications and complications?

GIMME GIMME GIMME (A MAN AFTER MIDNIGHT)

2008-10-19T09:36:00.004+08:00

My parents dug up their old ABBA cd, not bad, I'd sayyyy (:
I went to Sara's church yesterday, it was frigging hilarious!
The day was fun :D
For two main reasons:
1) Sara's sister, Claire, is so cute :D Her family is very friendly!
2) Crazy animals.
Need I say more? HAHAHAHAH :D
It's such a pity school's ending so soon ):
The countdown- 4 days. 4 short days, I'll definitely miss everyone, especially if we don't go to the same class.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANELLE!
We've been in the same class for 2 years, and in the same cell for about 4, 5(?)years. You've always been a dear friend, and have never turned away from listening to my woes and sorrows. We bitched together about ____, and you've been there for me when my family was facing a rough patch. Now that you're finally 14, I wish that God will bless you richly, and that you will have a many great days and happiness ahead of youuuuuu! (: I love you dear, and have always done so. I'll always have etched in my memory the psychedelic colours you brought into my life.

Love, love, love you! <3